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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A opened love, A secret hurt,
A husband that doesn't appreciates.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even care,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I am secertly crying,
If I am right beside you,
Will you notice me?

My Everyday Life - Experiences

Wednesday, June 8, 2011; 6/08/2011 01:05:00 PM

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today i did not went to work again... so bad my attendance!!!! haiix... the pain in the morning is so painful that i fainted not knowing until about 12 plus like that my colleague, Soo Kim called me to ask if i was okies anot... if not i dont know whether i still can wake up anot...

i was wondering in the morning the him got call me wake up??... cause i cant feel anything at all... i just woke up no strength looking at my phone a single message or a single call from the him also dont have...

not going to post too long today as my stomach is really killing me... like want to take my life away any second... !!! i am so afraid that i can never wake up again !!!

who will understand this kind of scared and worries... but my doctor dont recommend me to go under knifes now that i can stay on medications.. therefore my next appointment will be on next friday at the wellness centre and on 1st July 2011 at clinic C...

yesterday on facebook my ex-classmate so called of work in NUH... i was so afraid she knows what happen to me... cause she knows that clinic C is mostly for surgical cases.. therefore i just say that i am fine... : ) even if she visit me i think i also wont say.. i was so stupid to say that you can come to visit me.. later she will know everything... but what i was doing was being polite...

i dont even know that if the him is worried about me anot... cause a single call a single message has not reached me yet... if he has send me a message or give me a call to ask me how am i, i will be trilled till got pain also become no pain... but he didnt... he doesnt bother??...

maybe i should give him more time.. cause i know he not easy to walk back into the path.. he still wants to play.. hates me... which is the worst fear i have... haiix i miss him alots now... hoping to see him... which i know he does not want to see me... but than no matter what he do to me... i still love him...

look at the happy times... i wish all this can go back and i am willing to wait for him... cause he is my all.. friends i can have and can be made but they wont last long with you... only him... if given the chance everything can go back want... hoping that the him can give me another chance...

i dont have any more problems with his family like... i feel that they are starting to like me... like his sister... we can chit chat happily.. : D his father will auto talk to me and i also will do the same.. we can laugh and say things like the news watch tv... : D all this can be done cause i was given a chance to do so...

ooooookkkkiiiiiieeeeesssss!!!!!! ii am going to stop here... my pain is coming back again... i want to go and sleep but still scared that i sleep liao cant wake up... but sleeping can make me forget the pain i having now... if got updates i will update again later... ^^//

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updating again.... just woke up not long... after sleeping the whole day i woke up with a very bad headache... everything i using is bullying me even the him also... the television that i watching want to watch in korean language dont know what happen cannot change the language...

i called the him or talk to him he like dont want to answer me... haiix... i really dont know what to do... (;_;)...
i just want to be by his side no matter what happens... i will just take in everything on my shoulders cause by doing that i can save myself... the blow to me is real big i had a relapse again... i can 100% feel that he thinks that i am bluffing.. i am okies want..

i want to go out to watch movie with him today,, but i dont think he will agree to it.. as long as i stay in my position can liao lerx.. i will also be very happy.. although he dont take me as his wife,, i will do what a wife should do... that is one of my friends tell me want...

DO ANYTHING!!! GIVE YOUR 100% BUT THAN ALWAYS ALWAYS REMEMBER NOT TO EXPECT 100% OF RETURNS!!! ESPICALLY FROM THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST!!!

i dont dare to open my mouth now to ask him he wants to go out with me.. cause i dont want to get disappointed.. ^^// save alot of troubles... i scared to ask.. somemore i not really well if i ask him to go out he will defiantly think i faking.. but i will try to be strong infront of him.. : )

update again later bahx if free... : )

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More About Me (>*-*>)

I am Melissa, in short Mel.

Sweet 20 this year.

Waiting for the him to come and fetch me to his palace.. (^^)// .. starting a new family together... : D...

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