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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A opened love, A secret hurt,
A husband that doesn't appreciates.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even care,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I am secertly crying,
If I am right beside you,
Will you notice me?

My Everyday Life - Experiences

Thursday, September 30, 2010; 9/30/2010 09:38:00 AM

(;_;) Is iT s0 3mbArraSSiNg t0 l3t 0th3rS Kn0w (;_;)

Is it so embarrassing to let others know??...

i like to watch korean dramas and i got two shows to share..

Cruel Temptation

A man that have no shame.. He has a wife, but than he still goes outside picking flowers and bring the flowers home.. Killed the wife in order to marry the flowers... haiiz...

Two Wifes

This man have a wife at home.. Also another no shame.. Goes outside and pick flowers also.. but this one different got wife say no wife...

watch the cruel tempation really make people have that tempation to do the same following the show... taking revenge.. there are people worst than the two men in the show.. they can do both... like this is not called no shame already is called pro..

yesterday i didnt post anything,cause i also dont know want to say what.. i was shocked, stunned and disappointed.. shocked by what is written, stunned that it was written in front of me, disappointed of myself being shocked and stunned... i throwed my temper yesterday.. what a stupid move... it shows that i still care..

you are there is also like not there..

making things worst only me... throwing my temper around.. haiiz.. already say that have to control my emotions... but i am still showing it out.. why?? why?? why?? what am i surpose to do..

!!anyway i dare to write all this cause i know that the him wont come and see my dairy want!!..

my daily life is not a interest to many people... cause my life is so boring and only around someone... that's me... once devoted i will devote to it or someone my whole life.. unless something really happens.. many people are disappointed in me.. which i and them knows why.. i tired liao.. cause of all those tears that are flowing down my cheeks..

that is my day yesterday... (;_;)/~~~

(>*-*>)sadandhurtgal

luvs@pooh&you

Tuesday, September 28, 2010; 9/28/2010 12:22:00 PM

(u_u) it hUrTs (u_u)

it hurts to see

it hurts to hear

it hurts to do

it hurts to give

what can i do?... what can i say?...

it is what you like to do, and you are happy with it...

one after another, one after another... first this, than that, next what??...

??FEND??

one can, two can, after that??...

how long can i carry on??... asking myself...

i choose, i see, i hear, i know..

i cant blame anyone but myself.. cause is i choose to see, hear and know.. thats why i will get this kind of results.. the smile on the face shows that the you are happy can already..

what is going on outside, i know, everyone is showing it on their faces when they look at me..

WHY am i here??...

WHY am i doing this??..

WHY am i so stubborn??..

WHY WHY WHY....

their faces is full of (?_?) question marks...

i know it is sickering for the **** to see me... irriating..

cannot get any sleep yesterday night... i have used up all my strength and i am tired.. but i still will carry on...

ask to wait.. and will wait... no matter how long...

i have used 1/4 of my life waiting.. waiting alittle longer also will have no harm.. as long as **** is there...

didnt have enough sleep.. i guess is that movie, PIRANHA 3D, that me and the him watched on funshion at night before we slept... the movie is rather sick and disgusting and frightening at times.. some more it is a R21 movie..

hmm... but i cant sleep after that.. than so fast morning already.. woke up, prepare the him for work.. and than watch my show.. but i want to go and try sleep now.. i rather sleep than anyhow go and think.. cause of that few words someone said to the him.. i am so hurt, and keep anyhow think.. haiiz... (u_u)...

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5.14pm:

i am so dead.. how hard i try to sleep, i still cant sleep... what should i do..

how can i control my emotions infront of the him??... can anyone advice... haiiz.. everyone is disappointed with me...

i just need 5mins from a person to listen to what i have to say... what can i expect?.. i cant expect anything from a person.. why do i keep having day dreams... keep thinking that there will be a little hope that you will listen to what i have to say... what can you expect from a person that cant see you... its so fast... so swift... come and just go... just like that... i will have to keep seeing only the your backview... so happy and blessed... today i really cried... tears keep rolling down my cheeks and cant stop.. like a spoiled water tap... i am jealous of them.. so jealous... (u_u)... (;_;)... they have all i never have wanted...

**WiLL uPdaT3 lAt3r aGaiN in Th3 NiGhT...** (;_;)/~~~~
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11.48pm:

Here is a story...

There is a girl and a guy... The guy loves this particular sport, rain or shine he will also keep some time for it.. This sport can be played by both genders and the place where he always had his games there will always be ladies there.. At that time, the guy is happy with his girlfriends.
One day, the girl ask the guy if he wants to have dinner with her.. but did not get any reply.. Thus, the girl waited.. at last the guy came back, but the girl have no guts to ask if he has eaten and wants to eat with her.. So she decided to not ask and wait for him to say.. cause the girl is so afraid that the guy will get mad at her.. While waiting the girl knows that the guy is chatting with his girlfriends, smiling so happily.. This makes the girl so upset, whenever she hear it ring the girl's heart breaks.. Sad but the girl can't do anything about it.. Cause she doesn't want to make things worst..
At last, the guy asked if they girl wants to follow him and get some food.. at first the girl was sad and didn't want to follow.. but after thinking again.. "no point being that way" cause she promise herself that she will try not to show her feelings out.. So they went to buy noodles, hotdogs, crabmeat, drinks.. The girl was happy.. but still something upset her, hurt her.. the guy said that his skills in that sport is getting better and he will only teach his girlfriends.. the girl holds her tears and force a smile on her face.. but deep inside the girls is so hurt.. After they reach home, the girl cooks for the guy to eat... her heart full of sadness.. but she is happy and felt blessed that she can still cook for the guy to eat..

End of the story..

..??INTERESTING??..

i cant sleep just now.. keep having nightmares.. anyhow thinking...
watching the ghost whisper now.. quite scary to watch it at night..
but tired.. will try to sleep early tonight if possiable.. : D

that's my day... hope you like my boring story.. (>*-*>)...

(>*-*>)hurtinginsidegal

luvs@pooh&you

Monday, September 27, 2010; 9/27/2010 07:18:00 PM

$^o$ (/o^)/ y3Ah wHAt A w0nd3rfUl dAy $^o$ (/o^)/

in the middle of the night being hungry is so sickering... so fattering... hahahahaz.. : D
but was a happy moment... half a hotdog and i am happy until like that.. hahahahaz.. *(^O^)*

hehehehez... eat liao sleep... wah can die... hahahahaz....
had a really good night sleep.. full of smiles on my face.. this few days is the happiest days of this two months.. carry on being happy and my illness will faster recover i hope.. haiiz this few days i feel that the pain is coming and going more often than the past.. really hurts alot when it hurts.. but i try my best not to show out already.. dont want the him and his father to be worried, family also.. haiiz... m(_ _)m my bad...

(@_o) !!bad weather but excellent mood!! (@_o)

woke up around 3pm.. sleep until like pig like that.. but still i got notice when the him go or come back... i am a very light sleeper... sleeping can hear what is happening around sometimes.. little bit of noise than i wake up liao lerz... hahahaz..

called mac delivery at around 4pm like that... i ordered the usual double cheese burger and he ate the double fillet-o-fish.. hahahaz... quite expensive want... once in the while eat can liao lerz... cost the him S$17.70... going to 5 the delivery came than we eat together and watch inception.. but that movie the graphic not very good... and the story line starting dont really understand what is it talking about.. how can people go into other people's dream still can talk and fight want.. so weird.. so watch until half-way than never watch liao.. cause the him wants to go and play basketball again... (/_\)

he ate extremly fast sia.. cause he wants to go down and play basketball.. haiiz.. help the him to prepare liao than see him go, after that go and finish my mac and watch my show..

haiiz... like i say.. SEE MORE, TALK LESS, SHOW LESS.. no matter how sad, how angry, how hurt you are.. it is best to try not to say anything or show anything.. hide inside that broken heart is the best..

i know, but i dont say, dont ask.. being 8(>_<)8, being (u_u), cannot solve the problem, only create more problems.. so it is a wise decision not to do that... (;_;)/~~~~

no matter what i am still really happy and have a excellent mood today.. wont go and spoil it because of this thing.. (not going to say what it is here...)

DON'T WORRY!!! BE HAPPY!!!!

~~ going to go watch my show first.. later will update agian... waiting and waiting ~~

~~~updated~~~

hmm... i was writing something and suddenly the him appeared at the window... i had a shock of my life... wah... luckily the him didnt see what i write (hopefully the him didnt)...

dont know y, while i was writing i didnt realise that i dropped a few tears on that paper.. maybe is because of the song that was playing outside the room... but it is okies!!!...

actually today need to go back to NUH to see doctor and get my report want... but than the appointment changed to next monday.. hopefully i can still stay... : D (*crossed fingers*)...

nothing much liao today... happy day.... (>*-*>) anything i will update tomorrow again... hahahahaz... : )

(>*-*>)excellentmoodgal

luvs@pooh&you

Sunday, September 26, 2010; 9/26/2010 07:42:00 PM

(@_0) dAy fUll 0f cUri0usIty & mAdn3sS (@_0)

<< !!!WAH WHAT A WONDERFUL AFTERNOON!!! >>

weather is good... no rain todayy...
had a really good night sleep.. sweet dreams... hahahahaz.. being loved the feeling.. : D
i really love that feeling so much!!!.... hahahahaz... smiles & smiles & smiles.. smiles until my mouth can split opennn.. but i wont say what my dream is.. hahahaz... : D (*sssshhhhh* secret)

had lunch with the him.. i had claypot.. wah so expensive.. he had mee pok..
the claypot rice is quite okies... but i still prefer the one at the market there want... i think it is nicer to eat..
cant finish the whole thing by myself.. so i shared with the him...

i feel that i talked too much and showed too much feelings out already.. sometimes really hate my mouth and my face.. showed out too much feelings, talk too much already... (/_\) i shouldnt push too far... i also cannot blame others cause is i deserved all this want..

EVERY CHOICE HAS ITS CONSEQUENCES!!!

i have said and done my part as a ****, but it is up to people if they want to treasure me or take me for granted... i dont have the power nor the strength to control their choice... taking pity isnt going to help at all..

i am so curious about what is the answer && mad with myself...

but so fast and i get the answer.. ONE CALL... my hopes for today are all dash.. i thought that there might be a tiny tinny winnie bit that i may get listened to... but i also cannot be disappointed in anyone.. only myself.. cause i am too 不知量力 already... all this is known long time ago... but you know.. hopes... push me to carry on.. (n_n)

LONELY?? || dont have the right to say that.. ||

Y?? || dont have the right to care... ||

WHERE?? || dont have the right to know.. ||

WHO?? || dont have the right ask... ||

i dont play... i am serious.. afraid but still go on.. waiting and waiting... hopes after hopes... dreams after dreams..

enough of this... after the him left for basketball... enjoying the him and her... i keep myself occupied...

1. watch finish my show 烘焙王金桌球

2. wash the bed sheets and clothes, fold them....

3. wait... everytime i look out and see 7th floor i am full of hopes... (like a weirdo) : D

knowing too much bring too much pain @ times.. sometimes really envy those people that are not very smart (no offence) like this they wont know too much and like this they are more happier...

see more, talk less, show less??...

**t0 b3 c0nTinu3d**

****updated****

hahahahaz... i am over the moon... the him came back around 8 plus, after that we went to IMM and get a printer.. CANON is the brand, got fax, print, scan all in one... S$169 same as his block number.. can go buy 4D liao lerz.. hahhahahaz... : D

at least we get to go out... smiles (*v*)

the printer is quite bulky, so when we go home have to be extra careful.. i was so scared that anytime i will fall of the motor.. *phewwwwww* but was safely home.. sweat all over... reached home than go and bathe.. rather hot want and sweat alot... hahahhaaz... after that we set up the printer together.. it is such a long time already... : )

real tired and hungry.. but must control cause i cannot eat much also...

to the him: ALL THE BEST IN YOUR INTERVIEWS TOMORROW OR TUES!!!! JIA YOU!!!

.....signing off...... (^^)// yeah...

(>*-*>) fullofhopesgal

luvs@pooh&you

(n_n) n0t A b0rInG n0r A iT3r3sTiNg dAy (n_n)

Saturday, 25/09/2010,

friday night after dinner with the him, he went to had a game of mahjong with his guys friends @ their house...

waited for the him to come back home, so that i can open the door for the him, so wonderful the feeling...

although the him didnt come back right after the game, he went to eat mac with them, i still waited... it gives me the being blessed feeling..
HAPPY!!! (>*-*>)...
the him came home @ around 5 plus am... : ) so it is considered saturday post liao.. hahahahahaz...

.... sweet dreams... sleep tight...
(*-*)zzzzzzz......

Friday, September 24, 2010; 9/24/2010 07:31:00 PM

(>*-*>) wHat a dAy at tH3 h0spItAl (>*-*>)

thursday, 23/09/2010

hahahahaz... ytd i didnt update cause i was tired and sick..
ytd wasnt my day.. was surpose to go to work with qun ying and zt but in the wee morning i vomited and have fever.. after a jab i was fine..

: D after that in the afternoon i waited for the him at his block downstairs and go home with him.. : D

although i know too much and the friends i once knew encouraged & moved on i dont want to say much..
keeping quiet maybe can be more peaceful, and wont have so much trouble..

!!!!JUST DO MY PART & BE HAPPY!!!!

.....at least i get to be there....
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Wednesday, September 22, 2010; 9/22/2010 11:47:00 PM

(>*-*>) HuGs && Ki3ss3s (>*-*>)

another day just pass by like that...

and come another day..

24 hours is not enough for some people...

looking forward to tomorrow... going to go work with qun ying and zhen teng @ coffee bean..
starting work @ 11am and going to do OT if can!!! earn more for my expenses.. : D

lets see what is the changes there is, there... keep bullying my friends.. haiiz..
work peacefully and everyone will be happy marz.. y want to side here and there!!! must be fair and square..

everyone is important, please still give your respect to them.

dont take anyone for granted, use already than throw..

like rubbish like that (!_!)

today is a boring day for me!! stayed at home after that go out and saw things that are so "nice"...

nothing much to do and watch the 倚天屠龍记..

going to sleep liao lerz... tomorrow gonna wake up early to go to work.. (n_n)...

....signing off....

(>*-*>) myhappiness&luvisyou

luvs@pooh&you

(**) A wH0le n3w l00k f0r mY bl0g (**)

Dear QY, JY....

At last i cleared & deleted all the unhappy blogs that i had in the past...

This is a new post for this month..!!! Learnt to not go and hate those ppl that took all my things away from me and instead learnt to love them better...!!! (^^)// THREE CHEERS TO MEL!!!!... : D

Took a good whole 7hours just to "REBORN" this page of mine.. suddenly saw that there are many things that is not meant to be there.. (>*-*>)...

HUGS AND KISSES to you all (n_n) !!!!...

many question marks (?_?) to life and all the things that are happening right now!!

but there is a reason that why it is there.. : )

TO: NET

hehehehehez.. went with you to JOG today at gombak stadium... can exercise more often in future.. : D

too bad i cant run much cause stomach still pain... wait i recover liao i will run with you all you want.. hahahahaz...

got to go and sleep liao!!!! so so so so so... the... tired... (@_@) gong gong already!!! >.<
pardon me if my english is bad.. i in a half sleeping half awake kind of status to write this post.. hahahahaz... : )

(^^)// myhappiness&luvisyou

luvs@pooh&you

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I am Melissa, in short Mel.

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Waiting for the him to come and fetch me to his palace.. (^^)// .. starting a new family together... : D...

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