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Saturday, June 11, 2011; 6/11/2011 10:41:00 AM
(~_^) S00000 3aRly Wak3 Up.. (^_~)
(~_^) S00000 3aRly Wak3 Up.. (^_~)
actually not so early... i slept at around 2 plus going to 3am today morning... cause i watch show and chatting with Yi Qi... but i was so bad... never tell her than i sleepy liao than go and sleep... hahahax... now is around 10.47am liao lerx...
wake up first thing i never go brush teeth... EEEEEEEE!!!!!! DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!..... hahahaz.... first thing i do is to take Ju Hua Cha for the him to drink... second thing is to wash the clothes... after that i go blog liao lerx... than go and brush my teeth... after that i will wait for his father to wake up than sweep and mop the floor... so fast another week liao lerx than all so dirty... ""shake head"" incredibly fast sia at how the dust and dirt pile up... haiix... "p
okies liao lerx... i going to do housework liao lerx... haiix stomach pain sia... if not too pain i shall pretand in front of him not pain at all... because it is still bearable... : D later than update again okies!!!! CHEERS!!! ^^//
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i finished the housework in 2 hours.... : ) so slow sia me today... : ) but i was happy to do them.. feel that it is what i can do and is like my job... i am happy doing so... : )
i cried... the him left me... he really left me... i am no more his wife... i cried and cried for so long.. i am tired liao lerx... i ate alot of it.. now i am going to sleep liao lerx... i send him stupid sms again... HOW STUPID OF ME!!!! i DESERVE IT!!!!! i love the guy that hates me...
I LOVE YOU FOREVER LAOGONG!!!!!
i put all my medicine inside my drink... and going to sleep now.. : D see how long i can sleep bahx... : D he wont care and wont reply me anymore...
my head is spinning already... i going to sleep now... i love you my blog and love my husband forever... may my presence stay with you... : D good night laogong... good night blog... let me have a good time sleeping... : ) shall listen to 88.3FM as i sleep...
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wake up liao lerx... proof that the medicine is not strong enough... i wake up the time... the him at home liao lerx... : D i am damm sad that i cry myself to sleep... he so hate me... he totally dont want to see me...
his father come home the time in the afternoon ask me "EAT ALREADY ANOT??" VERY CARING SIA I SO HAPPY!!! at night i wake up the time i walk outside he dont know how to use the electric cooker ask me how to use.. SO CUTE!!! hahahaz...
i also dont know.. now my stomach so pain.. watch show awhile dont want to watch liao lerx... like forcing myself to laugh like that... i want to go sleep again.. head still spinning... cry myself to sleep??... nitex...
(>*_*>)notsoearlybirdgal
luvs@pooh&you
Friday, June 10, 2011; 6/10/2011 08:58:00 PM
(♥_♥) HaPPy 4 YRs 5 M0nThs AnniV3rsaRy (♥_♥)
(♥_♥) HaPPy 4 YRs 5 M0nThs AnniV3rsaRy (♥_♥)
10/06/2011.....
today is me and the him the 4 years 5 months anniversary... but i dont think that he will acknowledge it at all... (;_;)... but it is okies.. at least he is at home and not outside... at least he is by my side although we never go out... ^^// hahahaz... i VERY VERY HAPPY!!!!! i not sure he knows anot but at least i will feel damm happy de... : )
today i again half day than go home liao lerx... today morning i wake up shocked... wont tell you why... hehehehex.... but i am happy i lying in his arms... : ) hehehehehez..... i dont want to let you know liao... from how i type you of course can see how happy i am right.... : ) hahahahaz... mood real good!!!! good until i pain i also dont care liao lerx... : ) hahahahaz...
today at work actually i want to clear my things want but than the server down than i cannot do anything at all... but than i dont go and fan him to bring up the server fast cause i know that he is really stress liao lerx... other people keep go and fan him tell him the server down all this... at least i must understand how he feels so i dont go and disturb him... i didnt talk to him and make him angry... UNDERSTANDING right me!!! proud of myself... hehehehz... "" BUT CANNOT TOO PROUD ARX MELISSA!!!!! "" : D
than i nothing to do so play my sudoku lorx... but i didnt realize that my boss behind me... until he stamp his feet.. hahahaz... i was so shocked.. but he didnt scold me, his mood today is real good the lorx... : ) hahahaz... but than server is my life without it i also cannot do anything so boss scold me i still got excuse... hahahaz...
>>>>> BAD HORX ME!!! BAD EXAMPLE!!! BAD HR!!! >>>>>> hahahaz....
than i go in to my boss room to sign my MC before going home... he ask me "" WAH!!! WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU "" than give me that BIG BIG WIDE WIDE SMILE -_- hahahaz... so shocked sia... very the weird sia he like that smile at me... hahahaz.... : )) but never mind after that jiu okies liao lerx... : )
after that we went to the him the house downstairs eat lunch.. we all ate zhi cha today... hahahaz... haven tell you with who right... okies... i was with the him, Soo Kim, Esther Loke, Vivien... hahahaz... we called 5 plates of food... WE ARE SO SCARY!!!! so many food sia... hahahaz... we called suan la tang, deer meat, fish, our favourite pai gu wang, and a plate of vegs... hahahaz... they all say it is really nice... : ) frankly speaking the food there is nice want... : ) hahahaz... than i sooooooo happy lorxxxxx.... the him help me to take deer meat for me to try... : ) smile until i dont know how to stop sia... see small small things you also so happy... "" CRAZY ARX YOU MELISSA "" hahahaz... after that i go home than rest awhile than sleep liao lerx.. i wake up the time the him come home liao lerx... i wake up to cook JU HUA CHA for the family to drink... : ) than go and watch my TV show... okies that is my day today!!!
CAN SEE THAT I HAVING A VERY AND EXTREMELY HAPPY DAY TODAY RIGHT!!! ^^//
okies gonna stop here than go catch up my drama liao lerx... SEE YA!!!! : )
(>*_*>)veryextremelyhappygaltoday
luvs@pooh&you
Thursday, June 9, 2011; 6/09/2011 05:44:00 PM
o(╥﹏╥)o cRyinG?? n0?? Y3s?? :::::: o(╥﹏╥)o L0V3s hIm m0sT... o(╥﹏╥)o
o(╥﹏╥)o cRyinG?? n0?? Y3s?? :::::: o(╥﹏╥)o L0V3s hIm m0sT... o(╥﹏╥)o
yes i am crying... why... cause i am really sad... no matter how you humiliate me i can ren want... why cause i still love you... still want to be your wife and the mother of your children.. why dont give me that chance.. eyes swollen again... i dont want to cry infront of you cause i want to be strong infront of you to prove to you i can want... (;_;):::::::::::::: asking me to disappear from your life you really want that??.... that you tell your friend and they come and attack me... how you attack me i also can... but didnt expect that they come and attack me again..
Guess What They Say My Beloved And Always Love Husband.... let me tell you bahx... second time in my life someone called me a bitch, slut, still a THIRD PARTY... that say from the start you be with me is because you want to prove to others you can chase me and win other eople... you from the start never love me before... ONCE ALSO DONT HAVE!!!! you just want to sleep with me... after that throw me away... but didnt expect that i will stick to you like a gen bi chong....
i choose not to believe them, but i still cried... than today i send the him a message saying "laogong i think i will give you some peace.. talk i wont talk to you call also wont.. you pretend i dont exist bahx.. cause i wont.. you want do what i dont care liao.. cause i dont have the strength to care.. anything i will message you only.. if you want reply me or not i also fine liao now.. i hate myself for loving you so much and you hate me so much.. that you tell others about me that now i kanna scold by your friends that actually dont know what happen.."
but this message is not from my heart... i dont want you to not care me... dont want to cannot talk to you.. dont want to cannot call you... i say that i dont want to care, but than i will still care but not so open already this time... i dont want you dont reply me... i DONT HATE MYSELF LOVING you... i will ignore what your friends said to me... WHY?? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!!!
"WHO WILL UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AND WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH??"
i dont want to leave you and really dont want you to leave me... who will understand...
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today i go to work half day in the morning cause Soo Kim and Vivien got course and Jess is on leave, therefore i have to stand in... i have no strength at all... when we are at office and walking up the stairs he ask me " I rest so much, how come still like dieing like that " i also dont know how to reply him.... after that Srini (My Boss) called me... i thought what happen later kanna scolding... but actually not... just want to let me know something... THEY ARE SO NICE!!!! : ) they are very concern about me, still ask me to go home... : D hahahaz... after that all the things i state up there is what i want to say here...
time pass very fast... than lunch liao lerx... i when back the him fetch me home.. than me, the him and esther loke when to eat lor mee... but i dont have any wei ko... so i didnt eat much... I AM SO HAPPY EATING WITH HIM!!! see eating with him only so happy liao.. he knows?? nope he dont know.. [%^&] after that he still say bye bye to me... making me even more happy... but i doubt he knows... : )...
reach home.. rest awhile and go see doctor... but i so stupid... go down the doctor close liao.. stupid me still sit outside to wait for so long... diao... : ( waste my time... go home than sleep liao lerx... just wake up want to go see doctor liao... : ) any updates later than i update again... : )....
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i just came back from seeing the doctor... WAH!!!! i waited for so long until my head very pain sia.... : ( than the doctor ask me things i not paying attention... hahahax... so weird he ask me things i like gong gong like that dont know what i talking also... : D so funny... hahahax...
came back home see the him at home also never call me or msg me to ask where i am... i know he doesnt bother already... cause i know that he thinks all that i say is bluffing only... it is okies... once twice than no more liao lerx... i almost talk to him sia... how i wish to talk to him... (;_;)....
the doctor gave me two days MC for me to rest at home... ^^// gonna have a good rest and dont stress myself too much until the next review at NUH... i hope this time they can see something... cause i dont want a relapse again...
he is going out now... i didnt ask where he is going... i see he take his car keys... maybe going to find them again... what can i say.. i say i willl give him peace liao wont talk to him... how i wish i want to ask him if he where he is going... i dont know what to do... keep quiet and cry quietly??.... (;_;)::::::::::::::
(>*_*>)lovelygalthatloveshimonly
luvs@pooh&him
Wednesday, June 8, 2011; 6/08/2011 01:05:00 PM
♡ ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ L0V3S N3V3R Di3 ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ ♡
♡ ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ L0V3 ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ ♡
today i did not went to work again... so bad my attendance!!!! haiix... the pain in the morning is so painful that i fainted not knowing until about 12 plus like that my colleague, Soo Kim called me to ask if i was okies anot... if not i dont know whether i still can wake up anot...
i was wondering in the morning the him got call me wake up??... cause i cant feel anything at all... i just woke up no strength looking at my phone a single message or a single call from the him also dont have...
not going to post too long today as my stomach is really killing me... like want to take my life away any second... !!! i am so afraid that i can never wake up again !!!
who will understand this kind of scared and worries... but my doctor dont recommend me to go under knifes now that i can stay on medications.. therefore my next appointment will be on next friday at the wellness centre and on 1st July 2011 at clinic C...
yesterday on facebook my ex-classmate so called of work in NUH... i was so afraid she knows what happen to me... cause she knows that clinic C is mostly for surgical cases.. therefore i just say that i am fine... : ) even if she visit me i think i also wont say.. i was so stupid to say that you can come to visit me.. later she will know everything... but what i was doing was being polite...
i dont even know that if the him is worried about me anot... cause a single call a single message has not reached me yet... if he has send me a message or give me a call to ask me how am i, i will be trilled till got pain also become no pain... but he didnt... he doesnt bother??...
maybe i should give him more time.. cause i know he not easy to walk back into the path.. he still wants to play.. hates me... which is the worst fear i have... haiix i miss him alots now... hoping to see him... which i know he does not want to see me... but than no matter what he do to me... i still love him...
look at the happy times... i wish all this can go back and i am willing to wait for him... cause he is my all.. friends i can have and can be made but they wont last long with you... only him... if given the chance everything can go back want... hoping that the him can give me another chance...
i dont have any more problems with his family like... i feel that they are starting to like me... like his sister... we can chit chat happily.. : D his father will auto talk to me and i also will do the same.. we can laugh and say things like the news watch tv... : D all this can be done cause i was given a chance to do so...
ooooookkkkiiiiiieeeeesssss!!!!!! ii am going to stop here... my pain is coming back again... i want to go and sleep but still scared that i sleep liao cant wake up... but sleeping can make me forget the pain i having now... if got updates i will update again later... ^^//
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updating again.... just woke up not long... after sleeping the whole day i woke up with a very bad headache... everything i using is bullying me even the him also... the television that i watching want to watch in korean language dont know what happen cannot change the language...
i called the him or talk to him he like dont want to answer me... haiix... i really dont know what to do... (;_;)...
i just want to be by his side no matter what happens... i will just take in everything on my shoulders cause by doing that i can save myself... the blow to me is real big i had a relapse again... i can 100% feel that he thinks that i am bluffing.. i am okies want..
i want to go out to watch movie with him today,, but i dont think he will agree to it.. as long as i stay in my position can liao lerx.. i will also be very happy.. although he dont take me as his wife,, i will do what a wife should do... that is one of my friends tell me want...
DO ANYTHING!!! GIVE YOUR 100% BUT THAN ALWAYS ALWAYS REMEMBER NOT TO EXPECT 100% OF RETURNS!!! ESPICALLY FROM THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST!!!
i dont dare to open my mouth now to ask him he wants to go out with me.. cause i dont want to get disappointed.. ^^// save alot of troubles... i scared to ask.. somemore i not really well if i ask him to go out he will defiantly think i faking.. but i will try to be strong infront of him.. : )
update again later bahx if free... : )
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(>*_*>)fullofhopegal
luvs@pooh&you
Tuesday, June 7, 2011; 6/07/2011 07:03:00 PM
(;_;) An0th3r sAd dAy T0 g3t mIsUnd3RstANd by th3 HiM (;_;)
i dont know where to write to express the right feelings and love and friendship that i always treasure with him and my new found friends which is the few young ladies... i also dont know how to let him know the truth of many things... actually loving him i should let him go want.. but than i cannot do so.. cause i really love him too much.. and i need him.. not for any other reasons but just one simple reason, that i love him.. i have so much to share with him... and willing to do anything.. but will he appreciate me??... many of his friends tell me what he did outside but i doubt he know what they tell me... they all told me that he is a playboy and he has no real feelings for any girls want.. but if i like that tell him, he wont believe that it was them that tell me... like shi li she tell me got eyes see want will know that he is a flirt.. haiiz.. like today.. suddenly gotten splash my hot water by my beloved...
I really dont understand why i was gotten misunderstand by.. i really dont know what i do wrong.. it is wrong for me to make friends...
i dont make friends you say that i am not very welcoming... than i make friends you say that i am doing overboard..
why must my intension always gotten misunderstands from the him??... cant he see that i want to be a good wife... i dont want to dont have him... i cannot dont have him... who will understand how i feell... i dont want you to hate me... cause i really dont know what i do that make you hate me...
if i really did something wrong why not tell me... i really dont want to get misunderstandings that can cause our relationship to become worst.. is the him dont want to give me that chance... the him dont know how hurt i am...
he keep thinking that i cannot be his wife.. cause he didnt let me try.. he loves another girl?? no matter what i will trust him... cause I LOVE HIM!!!!
i cannot dont have him... i dont want to cry.. i want to be strong..
i am so sad today because of my health.. but his kiss of love and hands of warmth comfort me...
with him around me i feel so secure and safe.. without him my life really will fall want... he is my pillar of strength... i put this song is because i really love him... i am scared he really walk out of my life and really hate me and really dont want me anymore... i will cannot take it want...
after so long of trying... at last Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos are willing to go out with me and make friends with me... and i really have that heart to make friends with them.. not only for his sake but also mine.. : D
i cried again today after i gotten the results... recently i always cry until my eyes real swollen.. last time the misunderstandings with Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos and Li Zhen are alll cleared... : D so i am rather happy.. but his words suddenly attack me when all is well...
DONT MAKE ME HATE YOU... BECAUSE IT WILL BREAK OFF ALL OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WE WILL BECOME STRANGER... YOU BETTER CONTROL ON WHAT YOU ARE DOING..
i really dont know what he is referring to??... and he is so unwilling to tell me... i really hope that he will let me know cause all this misunderstandings are so not suppose to be there.. if he dont want me to make friends with them just let me know.. i wont talk to them anymore...
(>*_*>)gottenmisunderstandedgal
luvs@pooh&you
look at the happy times... i wish all this can go back and i am willing to wait for him... cause he is my all.. friends i can have and can be made but they wont last long with you... only him... if given the chance everything can go back want... hoping that the him can give me another chance... 
Dr3aMs to Get MaRRieD to tHaT hIm
ZT
February 2008