i dont know where to write to express the right feelings and love and friendship that i always treasure with him and my new found friends which is the few young ladies... i also dont know how to let him know the truth of many things... actually loving him i should let him go want.. but than i cannot do so.. cause i really love him too much.. and i need him.. not for any other reasons but just one simple reason, that i love him.. i have so much to share with him... and willing to do anything.. but will he appreciate me??... many of his friends tell me what he did outside but i doubt he know what they tell me... they all told me that he is a playboy and he has no real feelings for any girls want.. but if i like that tell him, he wont believe that it was them that tell me... like shi li she tell me got eyes see want will know that he is a flirt.. haiiz.. like today.. suddenly gotten splash my hot water by my beloved...
I really dont understand why i was gotten misunderstand by.. i really dont know what i do wrong.. it is wrong for me to make friends...
i dont make friends you say that i am not very welcoming... than i make friends you say that i am doing overboard..
why must my intension always gotten misunderstands from the him??... cant he see that i want to be a good wife... i dont want to dont have him... i cannot dont have him... who will understand how i feell... i dont want you to hate me... cause i really dont know what i do that make you hate me...
if i really did something wrong why not tell me... i really dont want to get misunderstandings that can cause our relationship to become worst.. is the him dont want to give me that chance... the him dont know how hurt i am...
he keep thinking that i cannot be his wife.. cause he didnt let me try.. he loves another girl?? no matter what i will trust him... cause I LOVE HIM!!!!
i cannot dont have him... i dont want to cry.. i want to be strong..
i am so sad today because of my health.. but his kiss of love and hands of warmth comfort me...
with him around me i feel so secure and safe.. without him my life really will fall want... he is my pillar of strength... i put this song is because i really love him... i am scared he really walk out of my life and really hate me and really dont want me anymore... i will cannot take it want...
after so long of trying... at last Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos are willing to go out with me and make friends with me... and i really have that heart to make friends with them.. not only for his sake but also mine.. : D
i cried again today after i gotten the results... recently i always cry until my eyes real swollen.. last time the misunderstandings with Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos and Li Zhen are alll cleared... : D so i am rather happy.. but his words suddenly attack me when all is well...
DONT MAKE ME HATE YOU... BECAUSE IT WILL BREAK OFF ALL OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WE WILL BECOME STRANGER... YOU BETTER CONTROL ON WHAT YOU ARE DOING..
i really dont know what he is referring to??... and he is so unwilling to tell me... i really hope that he will let me know cause all this misunderstandings are so not suppose to be there.. if he dont want me to make friends with them just let me know.. i wont talk to them anymore...
(>*_*>)gottenmisunderstandedgal
luvs@pooh&you
Dr3aMs to Get MaRRieD to tHaT hIm
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February 2008