hmm... was actually going to update it before 12am want.. but than in the end i went to play mahjong with big david, xiao hei and my darling... hahahaz... in the end i lose S$1.20 but than my darling cover up for me... than my darling win S$15... wahhhhhhhh alot right.. haiiz poor big david.. hmm... had a great game.. and lots of fun... : )
didn't update my dairy the last few days cause i wasn't in a really good mood and had very bad days.. especially the day before.. don't wish to say anything cause i am very sad... (;_;)/~~~~
in the wee morning, david, xiao hei, my darling and kenneth played mahjong and i watched some.. i think my darling let me play to make me happy.. hahahaz... at least he tried to make me happy.. cause that day i was so sad.. i cried for 7hours straight.. longest that i ever known in my life.. (for what i remembered)... hmm.. but won't say what really went wrong..
than durning the mahjong game.. at one point of time i was so damm pissed off cause they never put me in their eyes.. infront of me keep saying what the him and another girl this and that.. somemore at that time i eat my painkillers but my stomach is still aching very badly.. i have no mood to play mahjong at all at that time and i lose money.. haiiz.. after that i was better... so my mood also get better.. cause i think they saw my face change so they stop for awhile..
after that i let the him take over me cause my pain was really bad.. hahahaz.. than i go down help to go buy some food.. than i eat my medicine.. after that i felt better... (^-^) that is a good sign.. than want to sleeppp.. but than i slept like 45mins than wake up one time.. so after that i decided that i will watch my darling play.. in the end they played till 7.40am.. wahhhh... we played the whole night.. and than david, xiao hei and kenneth went to play basketball.. wahhhh.. they are so cool.... hahahaz... (>*-*>)
luckily the him didn't follow them.. hehehehez... so wicked right me... i don't wish for him to go.. really!!!
slept until 4pm in the afternoon than he go and played basketball.. hahahaz.. i followed him down i go waston than he go play basketball.. i don't feel really good seeing him play basketball with the girls.. but than how.. i love him so let him go and play..
i see i feel sad and jealous.. but than really hope that he cares for my feelings...
went to watsons and bought some cosmetics for me and the him... hahahaz... and body soap also.. quite cheap 3 refills for only S$8.. hmm.. cheaper than buy one bottle of LUX..
CONGRATS I KNOW TO SAVE ALOT!!!!!! (^^)
after that i walked home.. walked pass the basketball court.. at least the him still got look at me although he is playing basketball... means he still care for me.. : ) i am "FLYING" hahahaz.... go back home.. bathe, wash clothes and make them dry.. after that go and continue to watch my ghost whisper.. scary.. waiting for the him to call me than i can go down to go eat with the him.. hahahaz... i was so happy... he after an hour or two like that called me than i run down.. hehehehez.. but i realise something when i reached there.. the girls are all not around already.. maybe thats y he call me go down.. or maybe is i think too much liao lerz... : (
but it is okies.. in the end me and my darling and arron and xiao hei, we all went to eat MAC but i cant finish everything.. nowsdays my appetite is not good.. i can one whole day never eat anything at all or one day eat once only.. that is so bad sia.. but i can fit into my pants perfectly.. hahahaz.. it means that i am growing skinner.. so i must continue like that.. : ) the doctors also put me on diet.. cannot eat too much oily food also.. : (
after that like you know.. me, my darling, big david and xiao hei played mahjong.. than now i can update my dairy.. hahahaz...
today will be another day of worry and anxious..
i have to go back to the hospital to see my doctor to get my report on my CT scan... haiiiz.. after that go for an interview.. the him also got a interview tml @ 4.30pm.. hmm.. all the best to him.. hehehehez...
HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL TODAY!!!!!!
nothing goes wrong everything will be fine...
(>*-*>)worriedandscaredgal
luvs@pooh&you
Dr3aMs to Get MaRRieD to tHaT hIm
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February 2008