Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A opened love, A secret hurt,
A husband that doesn't appreciates.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even care,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I am secertly crying,
If I am right beside you,
Will you notice me?

how should i go about saying??... i also dont know how to start..

Wednesday, 13.10.2010:

i am so happy... the him send me to the SAF CMPB for my medical check-up and never say anything, like angry all this.. i am over-joyed sia.. cause i was afraid that the place is so far than the him wont want to send me there..  after that i reached he left for home this is for sure want.. but than i still tried to ask him to wait.. too bad i dont have my phone.. so he go home liao lerz.. i also know that he is tired also.. so early in the morning @ 8am.. so early sia the check-up.. acutally the check-up quite fast want.. the only thing that i wasnt happy was that.. when the NSman take my blood, he was so CHOR LOR.. he poke and take out the needle like not poke and taken out from a human with meat sia.. make until my hand until now still got the blue-balck sia.. haiiz.. other than that nothing much liao.. go home and sleep.. after that i dont rmb what happen liao lerz..

nowadays the things that i do, i hardly rmb after a day or so.. my memory is so bad now.. i dont know what is happening sia.. haiiz.. somemore at night i cant see anything.. really dark sia.. (T.T).... i also dont know what is happening.. maybe the side effects are coming out liao lerz.. and starting to take my health away liao lerz.. haiiz.. : (

Thursday, Friday, i dont really rmb what happen sia.. i forget what i did liao lerz... haiiz.. the only thing that i rmb is that i almost quarrelled with the him because of that girls.. haiiz.. i also dont want to angry and jealous want.. but i know he say all this is because he want me to leave him so he can go and chase other girls.. i know.. but....


anyway the him keep say me fan, irriating, gen bi chong.. haiiz.. all this said by him i still can ren abit.. but than i was treatened by someone that said that is his new GIRLFRIEND... haiiz.. you know what she say to me...

are you xiao bai the EX-GF??
why are you still at his house??
you are so thick-skin..
he already on facebook put he single already and clear all your things..
why are you still pastering him and like a glue...
because of you... xiao bai cannot openly chase me..
i like him.. and he likes me.. you are the stupid person that still dont want to give up..
just f***ing f off..


i already know they like each other.. i also not stupid.. i lost everything liao.. i know at this stage i cannot win already.. anyway i leaving soon liao lerz.. so i tell her not to worry... but she still say me.. ask me not to call or msg him and find him when he go to the basketball court.. i also know why.. so that they can be together.. than people will think that me and the him really break up liao lerz.. he dont call me darling already..

Saturday, 16.10.2010

yesterday, i was so happy... the him didnt go to the KTV with the girls.. gary, edmund, david all go with them.. i know he want to go want.. cause i heard him say.. i was sad for a moment.. but than after that i stop.. cause i think again.. he in the end never go so i am so happy (n_n).... he in the end go and play basketball.. than i meet shi li (wei zhi the girlfriend).. she also dont like the girls.. she hate them to the core.. haiiz..

who likes to see their own boyfriend to flirt with another girl.. who dont want their own boyfriend to see her more important than those girls.. who dont want their boyfriend to love and prtect them.. i also want..

but than i dont have the chance to enjoy all this liao lerz.. i know my own body want.. i know that i cannot got that day... happy married and have kids with the person i know.. (;_;)


after that me and shi li meet at the bubble tea store to buy drinks for both our beloved.. i know he likes to drink milk tea so i bought for him.. after that i and shi li walked to the basketball court to find them.. shi li said that quite weird if we walk together and they will be shocked.. cause we actually dont know each other want.. hahahaz.. but i told her it is okies.. cause they both know liao.. so wont shocked.. : D

after that we both sit there and wanted to talk want.. but than too many guys there liao.. so i decided not to say anything.. if not got more trouble..

funny thing is that we sit there the time.. saw something so funny sia.. two cats at the tree behind doing that kind of things... so disgusting sia.. hahahaz.. after that shi li and wei zhi go liao.. i am the only girl there... sit and watch them play basketball.. : D

after that me jim son, yong da and the him went to the market to eat.. : ) we both eat chicken rice.. hahahaz.. they are talking about the jersery thing.. i was jking only.. the yong da go and ding me.. i was like trying to be as friendly as possiable liao.. haiiz.. : D

after that we go buy water than go home liao.. help the him to make his leg than edmund, gary and david came over to play mahjong.. but than the him dont want to play let me play.. i had real fun sia that day play mahjong.. : D play till morning about going to 1am than stop.. play one round only.. haiiz... quite sian want.. cause edmund play one round than cannot take it liao.. haiiz.. hahahaz.. (n_n) but than i had real fun.. : ) this is my day till yesterday.. today the stuff i will update later...  : D

I am Melissa, in short Mel.

Sweet 20 this year.

Waiting for the him to come and fetch me to his palace.. (^^)// .. starting a new family together... : D...

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