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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A opened love, A secret hurt,
A husband that doesn't appreciates.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even care,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I am secertly crying,
If I am right beside you,
Will you notice me?

My Everyday Life - Experiences

Tuesday, September 28, 2010; 9/28/2010 12:22:00 PM

(u_u) it hUrTs (u_u)

it hurts to see

it hurts to hear

it hurts to do

it hurts to give

what can i do?... what can i say?...

it is what you like to do, and you are happy with it...

one after another, one after another... first this, than that, next what??...

??FEND??

one can, two can, after that??...

how long can i carry on??... asking myself...

i choose, i see, i hear, i know..

i cant blame anyone but myself.. cause is i choose to see, hear and know.. thats why i will get this kind of results.. the smile on the face shows that the you are happy can already..

what is going on outside, i know, everyone is showing it on their faces when they look at me..

WHY am i here??...

WHY am i doing this??..

WHY am i so stubborn??..

WHY WHY WHY....

their faces is full of (?_?) question marks...

i know it is sickering for the **** to see me... irriating..

cannot get any sleep yesterday night... i have used up all my strength and i am tired.. but i still will carry on...

ask to wait.. and will wait... no matter how long...

i have used 1/4 of my life waiting.. waiting alittle longer also will have no harm.. as long as **** is there...

didnt have enough sleep.. i guess is that movie, PIRANHA 3D, that me and the him watched on funshion at night before we slept... the movie is rather sick and disgusting and frightening at times.. some more it is a R21 movie..

hmm... but i cant sleep after that.. than so fast morning already.. woke up, prepare the him for work.. and than watch my show.. but i want to go and try sleep now.. i rather sleep than anyhow go and think.. cause of that few words someone said to the him.. i am so hurt, and keep anyhow think.. haiiz... (u_u)...

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5.14pm:

i am so dead.. how hard i try to sleep, i still cant sleep... what should i do..

how can i control my emotions infront of the him??... can anyone advice... haiiz.. everyone is disappointed with me...

i just need 5mins from a person to listen to what i have to say... what can i expect?.. i cant expect anything from a person.. why do i keep having day dreams... keep thinking that there will be a little hope that you will listen to what i have to say... what can you expect from a person that cant see you... its so fast... so swift... come and just go... just like that... i will have to keep seeing only the your backview... so happy and blessed... today i really cried... tears keep rolling down my cheeks and cant stop.. like a spoiled water tap... i am jealous of them.. so jealous... (u_u)... (;_;)... they have all i never have wanted...

**WiLL uPdaT3 lAt3r aGaiN in Th3 NiGhT...** (;_;)/~~~~
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11.48pm:

Here is a story...

There is a girl and a guy... The guy loves this particular sport, rain or shine he will also keep some time for it.. This sport can be played by both genders and the place where he always had his games there will always be ladies there.. At that time, the guy is happy with his girlfriends.
One day, the girl ask the guy if he wants to have dinner with her.. but did not get any reply.. Thus, the girl waited.. at last the guy came back, but the girl have no guts to ask if he has eaten and wants to eat with her.. So she decided to not ask and wait for him to say.. cause the girl is so afraid that the guy will get mad at her.. While waiting the girl knows that the guy is chatting with his girlfriends, smiling so happily.. This makes the girl so upset, whenever she hear it ring the girl's heart breaks.. Sad but the girl can't do anything about it.. Cause she doesn't want to make things worst..
At last, the guy asked if they girl wants to follow him and get some food.. at first the girl was sad and didn't want to follow.. but after thinking again.. "no point being that way" cause she promise herself that she will try not to show her feelings out.. So they went to buy noodles, hotdogs, crabmeat, drinks.. The girl was happy.. but still something upset her, hurt her.. the guy said that his skills in that sport is getting better and he will only teach his girlfriends.. the girl holds her tears and force a smile on her face.. but deep inside the girls is so hurt.. After they reach home, the girl cooks for the guy to eat... her heart full of sadness.. but she is happy and felt blessed that she can still cook for the guy to eat..

End of the story..

..??INTERESTING??..

i cant sleep just now.. keep having nightmares.. anyhow thinking...
watching the ghost whisper now.. quite scary to watch it at night..
but tired.. will try to sleep early tonight if possiable.. : D

that's my day... hope you like my boring story.. (>*-*>)...

(>*-*>)hurtinginsidegal

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I am Melissa, in short Mel.

Sweet 20 this year.

Waiting for the him to come and fetch me to his palace.. (^^)// .. starting a new family together... : D...

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