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Saturday, June 11, 2011; 6/11/2011 10:41:00 AM
(~_^) S00000 3aRly Wak3 Up.. (^_~)
(~_^) S00000 3aRly Wak3 Up.. (^_~)
actually not so early... i slept at around 2 plus going to 3am today morning... cause i watch show and chatting with Yi Qi... but i was so bad... never tell her than i sleepy liao than go and sleep... hahahax... now is around 10.47am liao lerx...
wake up first thing i never go brush teeth... EEEEEEEE!!!!!! DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!..... hahahaz.... first thing i do is to take Ju Hua Cha for the him to drink... second thing is to wash the clothes... after that i go blog liao lerx... than go and brush my teeth... after that i will wait for his father to wake up than sweep and mop the floor... so fast another week liao lerx than all so dirty... ""shake head"" incredibly fast sia at how the dust and dirt pile up... haiix... "p
okies liao lerx... i going to do housework liao lerx... haiix stomach pain sia... if not too pain i shall pretand in front of him not pain at all... because it is still bearable... : D later than update again okies!!!! CHEERS!!! ^^//
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i finished the housework in 2 hours.... : ) so slow sia me today... : ) but i was happy to do them.. feel that it is what i can do and is like my job... i am happy doing so... : )
i cried... the him left me... he really left me... i am no more his wife... i cried and cried for so long.. i am tired liao lerx... i ate alot of it.. now i am going to sleep liao lerx... i send him stupid sms again... HOW STUPID OF ME!!!! i DESERVE IT!!!!! i love the guy that hates me...
I LOVE YOU FOREVER LAOGONG!!!!!
i put all my medicine inside my drink... and going to sleep now.. : D see how long i can sleep bahx... : D he wont care and wont reply me anymore...
my head is spinning already... i going to sleep now... i love you my blog and love my husband forever... may my presence stay with you... : D good night laogong... good night blog... let me have a good time sleeping... : ) shall listen to 88.3FM as i sleep...
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wake up liao lerx... proof that the medicine is not strong enough... i wake up the time... the him at home liao lerx... : D i am damm sad that i cry myself to sleep... he so hate me... he totally dont want to see me...
his father come home the time in the afternoon ask me "EAT ALREADY ANOT??" VERY CARING SIA I SO HAPPY!!! at night i wake up the time i walk outside he dont know how to use the electric cooker ask me how to use.. SO CUTE!!! hahahaz...
i also dont know.. now my stomach so pain.. watch show awhile dont want to watch liao lerx... like forcing myself to laugh like that... i want to go sleep again.. head still spinning... cry myself to sleep??... nitex...
(>*_*>)notsoearlybirdgal
luvs@pooh&you
Friday, June 10, 2011; 6/10/2011 08:58:00 PM
(♥_♥) HaPPy 4 YRs 5 M0nThs AnniV3rsaRy (♥_♥)
(♥_♥) HaPPy 4 YRs 5 M0nThs AnniV3rsaRy (♥_♥)
10/06/2011.....
today is me and the him the 4 years 5 months anniversary... but i dont think that he will acknowledge it at all... (;_;)... but it is okies.. at least he is at home and not outside... at least he is by my side although we never go out... ^^// hahahaz... i VERY VERY HAPPY!!!!! i not sure he knows anot but at least i will feel damm happy de... : )
today i again half day than go home liao lerx... today morning i wake up shocked... wont tell you why... hehehehex.... but i am happy i lying in his arms... : ) hehehehehez..... i dont want to let you know liao... from how i type you of course can see how happy i am right.... : ) hahahahaz... mood real good!!!! good until i pain i also dont care liao lerx... : ) hahahahaz...
today at work actually i want to clear my things want but than the server down than i cannot do anything at all... but than i dont go and fan him to bring up the server fast cause i know that he is really stress liao lerx... other people keep go and fan him tell him the server down all this... at least i must understand how he feels so i dont go and disturb him... i didnt talk to him and make him angry... UNDERSTANDING right me!!! proud of myself... hehehehz... "" BUT CANNOT TOO PROUD ARX MELISSA!!!!! "" : D
than i nothing to do so play my sudoku lorx... but i didnt realize that my boss behind me... until he stamp his feet.. hahahaz... i was so shocked.. but he didnt scold me, his mood today is real good the lorx... : ) hahahaz... but than server is my life without it i also cannot do anything so boss scold me i still got excuse... hahahaz...
>>>>> BAD HORX ME!!! BAD EXAMPLE!!! BAD HR!!! >>>>>> hahahaz....
than i go in to my boss room to sign my MC before going home... he ask me "" WAH!!! WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU "" than give me that BIG BIG WIDE WIDE SMILE -_- hahahaz... so shocked sia... very the weird sia he like that smile at me... hahahaz.... : )) but never mind after that jiu okies liao lerx... : )
after that we went to the him the house downstairs eat lunch.. we all ate zhi cha today... hahahaz... haven tell you with who right... okies... i was with the him, Soo Kim, Esther Loke, Vivien... hahahaz... we called 5 plates of food... WE ARE SO SCARY!!!! so many food sia... hahahaz... we called suan la tang, deer meat, fish, our favourite pai gu wang, and a plate of vegs... hahahaz... they all say it is really nice... : ) frankly speaking the food there is nice want... : ) hahahaz... than i sooooooo happy lorxxxxx.... the him help me to take deer meat for me to try... : ) smile until i dont know how to stop sia... see small small things you also so happy... "" CRAZY ARX YOU MELISSA "" hahahaz... after that i go home than rest awhile than sleep liao lerx.. i wake up the time the him come home liao lerx... i wake up to cook JU HUA CHA for the family to drink... : ) than go and watch my TV show... okies that is my day today!!!
CAN SEE THAT I HAVING A VERY AND EXTREMELY HAPPY DAY TODAY RIGHT!!! ^^//
okies gonna stop here than go catch up my drama liao lerx... SEE YA!!!! : )
(>*_*>)veryextremelyhappygaltoday
luvs@pooh&you
Thursday, June 9, 2011; 6/09/2011 05:44:00 PM
o(╥﹏╥)o cRyinG?? n0?? Y3s?? :::::: o(╥﹏╥)o L0V3s hIm m0sT... o(╥﹏╥)o
o(╥﹏╥)o cRyinG?? n0?? Y3s?? :::::: o(╥﹏╥)o L0V3s hIm m0sT... o(╥﹏╥)o
yes i am crying... why... cause i am really sad... no matter how you humiliate me i can ren want... why cause i still love you... still want to be your wife and the mother of your children.. why dont give me that chance.. eyes swollen again... i dont want to cry infront of you cause i want to be strong infront of you to prove to you i can want... (;_;):::::::::::::: asking me to disappear from your life you really want that??.... that you tell your friend and they come and attack me... how you attack me i also can... but didnt expect that they come and attack me again..
Guess What They Say My Beloved And Always Love Husband.... let me tell you bahx... second time in my life someone called me a bitch, slut, still a THIRD PARTY... that say from the start you be with me is because you want to prove to others you can chase me and win other eople... you from the start never love me before... ONCE ALSO DONT HAVE!!!! you just want to sleep with me... after that throw me away... but didnt expect that i will stick to you like a gen bi chong....
i choose not to believe them, but i still cried... than today i send the him a message saying "laogong i think i will give you some peace.. talk i wont talk to you call also wont.. you pretend i dont exist bahx.. cause i wont.. you want do what i dont care liao.. cause i dont have the strength to care.. anything i will message you only.. if you want reply me or not i also fine liao now.. i hate myself for loving you so much and you hate me so much.. that you tell others about me that now i kanna scold by your friends that actually dont know what happen.."
but this message is not from my heart... i dont want you to not care me... dont want to cannot talk to you.. dont want to cannot call you... i say that i dont want to care, but than i will still care but not so open already this time... i dont want you dont reply me... i DONT HATE MYSELF LOVING you... i will ignore what your friends said to me... WHY?? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!!!
"WHO WILL UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AND WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH??"
i dont want to leave you and really dont want you to leave me... who will understand...
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today i go to work half day in the morning cause Soo Kim and Vivien got course and Jess is on leave, therefore i have to stand in... i have no strength at all... when we are at office and walking up the stairs he ask me " I rest so much, how come still like dieing like that " i also dont know how to reply him.... after that Srini (My Boss) called me... i thought what happen later kanna scolding... but actually not... just want to let me know something... THEY ARE SO NICE!!!! : ) they are very concern about me, still ask me to go home... : D hahahaz... after that all the things i state up there is what i want to say here...
time pass very fast... than lunch liao lerx... i when back the him fetch me home.. than me, the him and esther loke when to eat lor mee... but i dont have any wei ko... so i didnt eat much... I AM SO HAPPY EATING WITH HIM!!! see eating with him only so happy liao.. he knows?? nope he dont know.. [%^&] after that he still say bye bye to me... making me even more happy... but i doubt he knows... : )...
reach home.. rest awhile and go see doctor... but i so stupid... go down the doctor close liao.. stupid me still sit outside to wait for so long... diao... : ( waste my time... go home than sleep liao lerx... just wake up want to go see doctor liao... : ) any updates later than i update again... : )....
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i just came back from seeing the doctor... WAH!!!! i waited for so long until my head very pain sia.... : ( than the doctor ask me things i not paying attention... hahahax... so weird he ask me things i like gong gong like that dont know what i talking also... : D so funny... hahahax...
came back home see the him at home also never call me or msg me to ask where i am... i know he doesnt bother already... cause i know that he thinks all that i say is bluffing only... it is okies... once twice than no more liao lerx... i almost talk to him sia... how i wish to talk to him... (;_;)....
the doctor gave me two days MC for me to rest at home... ^^// gonna have a good rest and dont stress myself too much until the next review at NUH... i hope this time they can see something... cause i dont want a relapse again...
he is going out now... i didnt ask where he is going... i see he take his car keys... maybe going to find them again... what can i say.. i say i willl give him peace liao wont talk to him... how i wish i want to ask him if he where he is going... i dont know what to do... keep quiet and cry quietly??.... (;_;)::::::::::::::
(>*_*>)lovelygalthatloveshimonly
luvs@pooh&him
Wednesday, June 8, 2011; 6/08/2011 01:05:00 PM
♡ ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ L0V3S N3V3R Di3 ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ ♡
♡ ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ L0V3 ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ ♡
today i did not went to work again... so bad my attendance!!!! haiix... the pain in the morning is so painful that i fainted not knowing until about 12 plus like that my colleague, Soo Kim called me to ask if i was okies anot... if not i dont know whether i still can wake up anot...
i was wondering in the morning the him got call me wake up??... cause i cant feel anything at all... i just woke up no strength looking at my phone a single message or a single call from the him also dont have...
not going to post too long today as my stomach is really killing me... like want to take my life away any second... !!! i am so afraid that i can never wake up again !!!
who will understand this kind of scared and worries... but my doctor dont recommend me to go under knifes now that i can stay on medications.. therefore my next appointment will be on next friday at the wellness centre and on 1st July 2011 at clinic C...
yesterday on facebook my ex-classmate so called of work in NUH... i was so afraid she knows what happen to me... cause she knows that clinic C is mostly for surgical cases.. therefore i just say that i am fine... : ) even if she visit me i think i also wont say.. i was so stupid to say that you can come to visit me.. later she will know everything... but what i was doing was being polite...
i dont even know that if the him is worried about me anot... cause a single call a single message has not reached me yet... if he has send me a message or give me a call to ask me how am i, i will be trilled till got pain also become no pain... but he didnt... he doesnt bother??...
maybe i should give him more time.. cause i know he not easy to walk back into the path.. he still wants to play.. hates me... which is the worst fear i have... haiix i miss him alots now... hoping to see him... which i know he does not want to see me... but than no matter what he do to me... i still love him...
look at the happy times... i wish all this can go back and i am willing to wait for him... cause he is my all.. friends i can have and can be made but they wont last long with you... only him... if given the chance everything can go back want... hoping that the him can give me another chance...
i dont have any more problems with his family like... i feel that they are starting to like me... like his sister... we can chit chat happily.. : D his father will auto talk to me and i also will do the same.. we can laugh and say things like the news watch tv... : D all this can be done cause i was given a chance to do so...
ooooookkkkiiiiiieeeeesssss!!!!!! ii am going to stop here... my pain is coming back again... i want to go and sleep but still scared that i sleep liao cant wake up... but sleeping can make me forget the pain i having now... if got updates i will update again later... ^^//
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updating again.... just woke up not long... after sleeping the whole day i woke up with a very bad headache... everything i using is bullying me even the him also... the television that i watching want to watch in korean language dont know what happen cannot change the language...
i called the him or talk to him he like dont want to answer me... haiix... i really dont know what to do... (;_;)...
i just want to be by his side no matter what happens... i will just take in everything on my shoulders cause by doing that i can save myself... the blow to me is real big i had a relapse again... i can 100% feel that he thinks that i am bluffing.. i am okies want..
i want to go out to watch movie with him today,, but i dont think he will agree to it.. as long as i stay in my position can liao lerx.. i will also be very happy.. although he dont take me as his wife,, i will do what a wife should do... that is one of my friends tell me want...
DO ANYTHING!!! GIVE YOUR 100% BUT THAN ALWAYS ALWAYS REMEMBER NOT TO EXPECT 100% OF RETURNS!!! ESPICALLY FROM THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST!!!
i dont dare to open my mouth now to ask him he wants to go out with me.. cause i dont want to get disappointed.. ^^// save alot of troubles... i scared to ask.. somemore i not really well if i ask him to go out he will defiantly think i faking.. but i will try to be strong infront of him.. : )
update again later bahx if free... : )
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(>*_*>)fullofhopegal
luvs@pooh&you
Tuesday, June 7, 2011; 6/07/2011 07:03:00 PM
(;_;) An0th3r sAd dAy T0 g3t mIsUnd3RstANd by th3 HiM (;_;)
i dont know where to write to express the right feelings and love and friendship that i always treasure with him and my new found friends which is the few young ladies... i also dont know how to let him know the truth of many things... actually loving him i should let him go want.. but than i cannot do so.. cause i really love him too much.. and i need him.. not for any other reasons but just one simple reason, that i love him.. i have so much to share with him... and willing to do anything.. but will he appreciate me??... many of his friends tell me what he did outside but i doubt he know what they tell me... they all told me that he is a playboy and he has no real feelings for any girls want.. but if i like that tell him, he wont believe that it was them that tell me... like shi li she tell me got eyes see want will know that he is a flirt.. haiiz.. like today.. suddenly gotten splash my hot water by my beloved...
I really dont understand why i was gotten misunderstand by.. i really dont know what i do wrong.. it is wrong for me to make friends...
i dont make friends you say that i am not very welcoming... than i make friends you say that i am doing overboard..
why must my intension always gotten misunderstands from the him??... cant he see that i want to be a good wife... i dont want to dont have him... i cannot dont have him... who will understand how i feell... i dont want you to hate me... cause i really dont know what i do that make you hate me...
if i really did something wrong why not tell me... i really dont want to get misunderstandings that can cause our relationship to become worst.. is the him dont want to give me that chance... the him dont know how hurt i am...
he keep thinking that i cannot be his wife.. cause he didnt let me try.. he loves another girl?? no matter what i will trust him... cause I LOVE HIM!!!!
i cannot dont have him... i dont want to cry.. i want to be strong..
i am so sad today because of my health.. but his kiss of love and hands of warmth comfort me...
with him around me i feel so secure and safe.. without him my life really will fall want... he is my pillar of strength... i put this song is because i really love him... i am scared he really walk out of my life and really hate me and really dont want me anymore... i will cannot take it want...
after so long of trying... at last Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos are willing to go out with me and make friends with me... and i really have that heart to make friends with them.. not only for his sake but also mine.. : D
i cried again today after i gotten the results... recently i always cry until my eyes real swollen.. last time the misunderstandings with Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos and Li Zhen are alll cleared... : D so i am rather happy.. but his words suddenly attack me when all is well...
DONT MAKE ME HATE YOU... BECAUSE IT WILL BREAK OFF ALL OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WE WILL BECOME STRANGER... YOU BETTER CONTROL ON WHAT YOU ARE DOING..
i really dont know what he is referring to??... and he is so unwilling to tell me... i really hope that he will let me know cause all this misunderstandings are so not suppose to be there.. if he dont want me to make friends with them just let me know.. i wont talk to them anymore...
(>*_*>)gottenmisunderstandedgal
luvs@pooh&you
Sunday, November 28, 2010; 11/28/2010 10:52:00 PM
*v* l0nG TiM3 N0 S33 *v*
woah it's a long time since my last post.. : D hahahaz... thought that everyday i will have the time to at least post something on the wall.. : D but recently was so busy with work that i come home everyday so tired...
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i am happy with my job and will continue to work there and will work hard.. for my future.. so long never go back to poly to see my friends liao.. dont know they still rmb me anot.. or forget me liao lerz.. : D hahahaz.. but than i really like them as my friends.. : D
really have a peaceful life this whole month.. : D never cry all this.. haiiz but than sometimes my stomach wont let me go.. every morning confirm got stomach pain.. but i bluff the him say that it was just because i eat something thats why will like that.. hahahahaz.. i with him i so happy.. pain also become no pain.. : D
my medicine want to no more already.. have to wait one day he morning not around than i go to check - up. Replenish my medicine.. but than i scared later i spend my money on medicine than after that i dont know how to tell him.. haiiz have to find a excuse.. but than later i scared that he say me keep spending money on other no use the things.. haiiz.. hahahaz.. but nvm as long as i am healthy than i can live a better life with him.. : D hahahaz..
sian sia... tml is PAY DAY!!!!! i am so happy sia.. : D can go and shop and watch the movie that is coming out.. called TANGLED... from disney want.. hahahaz.. i want to go watch with my poly friends but dont know they free anot sia.. : D haiiz... if not i want to go watch with my the him.. hahahaz...
tomorrow will be a busy day... have to sleep early today... but than i want to wait till 12 midnight than see my pay come in than i happy.. than go and sleep.. hahahaz.. tomorrow wake up go work, after work go westmall meet my classmate than we go to singapore polytechnic to attend a concert which is conducted my my ex-secondary school, after that at night go and eat KFC with my that him (the newly opened spicy pepper chicken), after that got time we go to IMM to shop awhile.. but i think by than will be a little late liao lerz.. hahahaz.. but than that is the plan.. if there are any changes than say bah... hahahaz..
this week will be a busy week cause it is my BIRTHDAY... YEAH!!!!!! 5th of DEC....
i am so excited sia.. dont know how the him will celebrate with me.. hahahaz.. 4th od dec will go back home to have steam boat with my parents.. :D so happy.. : D hahahaz..
going to count down to my pay... see ya.. will try to update as soon as possible.. :D love you all..
(>*-*>)happyandloved
Monday, October 25, 2010; 10/25/2010 05:43:00 PM
(n_n) hAppY HaPPy dAy (n_n)
starting of a new week starting of a new day... everything will be different (i hope)....
didnt really update last two days cause i am dammmmeeeeddddddd lazy!!!!!!! hahahaz... but gonna have to update cause pass two days i am really, EXTREMELY, really, HAPPY...
saturday, 23/10/2010:
nothing much about that day, wait wake u play computer, after that msg my friend shi li...
she was at work in chua chu kang @ a singtel shop... wait for her to off work than go and eat dinner together with both our loved ones.. hahahaz... : D my darling went down to go and play basketball that day and injured his hand.. haiiiz.... dont understand y he dont want to listen to me???..... now both his hands and legs are all hurt... damm sad to see him like that... (;_;)....
after that the four of us plus jimson went to market to have our dinner... hahahaz... wah shi li is so cool sia... she having fever and sick and still can eat so hot... COOL!!!.... hahahaz... me, darling and weizhi ate lasi lemak.. hahaha... jimson so funny say dont want to eat than after we all eat finish liao he go and buy chicken wing to eat.. i assume that he see us all eating like so nice than he also hungry liao lerz... : D hahahaz...
went back home.. than weizhi, shi li, and darling play L4D until 5am in the morning sia... darling say that the both of them very hyper-active hahahaz... : D
too bad i dont know how to play, plus dont have account, PLUS darling laptop is a grandfather laptop cannot support the game... : D hahahaz... next time i bring my own laptop than ask my darling to teach me how to play... he so funny sia... only teach me how to hit the zombies and shoot them hahahaz... : D
sunday, 24/10/2010:
hmm... me and my darling woke up at about 3plus in the afternoon... hahahaz.. i knew it that he cant wake up to go to visit xiao hei in the camp.. hahahaz... : D in the end got ppl say he lazy and put areoplane... : ( who ask him... haiiiz...
after that we went to KFC to have lunch.. : D nice sia.. but dont know what happen to him... it seems that he no wei kou eat little bit jiu say full liao lerz... : D hahahaz... i was so happy... he said that if i get myself a job right than next time BOTH OF US CAN BUY A CAR TOGETHER!!!!!! wah i hear liao damm happy sia... : D mouth smile until want to crack liao lerz... : D hahahahahaz...
after that we both go home and than he went down to play basketball again... : (
i msg shi li ask her where is she... it was about 7 plus liao... i almost forgot to go down market there the photoshop to get my darling's photo.... hahahaz... later kanna scold sia... luckily shi li msg me than i see the time.. WAH SO LATE LIAO SIA!!!!!
than wei zhi also want to go down basketball court, so i go and meet shi li at the basketball court after that go and collect the photos.. hahahaz.. shi li say my darling so white.. actually it is true... thats why he is called "XIAO BAI" hahahaaz... : D
before i go down i still take my own sweet time to prepare.. haiiz... must change my habit liao...
!!!!!BE MORE HARDWORKING!!!!!
i was about to go down shi li called me saying the girls are all downstairs want to meet other place anot... i was like haiiz... than i think again.. "Y SHOULD I SCARED THEM CAUSE I ALREADY GET MY STATUS BACK LIAO LERZ...." so i like this tell shi li.. but than i was really scared... in fact i dont want to see them... so i go down i try not to look at them... but than i still go and see... than i saw the person that hate me the most keep looking at me... so i go find shi li than faster walk off liao.. i didnt even bother to say hi to anyone... haiiz...
after that me and shi li go and take photo liao, pass by the bubble tea shop and buy water for ourselves and for the both of them... : D i so auntie sia.. than on the way back i thinking want to go there anot... cause the girls are there... : ( but than halfway back i saw them all walking away... i tried not to look at them and pretand they are not there... but i know they all staring at me... but i was happy that they left... cause i dont have the burden when i sit down there... i dont know want to try make friends with them anot.. and forget that they once like that treat me... haiiz..
should i take the first step to make friends with them????
both me and shi li sot already... sit at the basketball court not see them play basketball but go and play the ICE TYCOON... play until we both sot already... hahahaz... everyone think that we all sot liao... play until so siao... hahahaz... : D than edmund lend my phone to call his brother.. i was shocked sia.. caused i thought allof them got the girls than wont want to talk to me liao lerz... hahahaz... i was so sorry to gary caused he ask me for time than i play game until so siao... i didnt really go and reply him!!! was so RUDE of me... haiiz.. next time than i bu chang okies... so sorry... : D hahahaz...
after that four of us plus big david went to eat dinner at the market.. WAH his car is very big and expensive sia... : D nice car, sit also very the su fu... hahahaz... : D but poor big david... he ownself eat only, cause the four of us not very the hungry... me and shi li go and play the ice tycoon again... haiiz.. must control myself liao... hahahaz... : D after that we all send shi li home... cause got ppl going to her house to play mahjong.. actually can see darling want to play mahjong want.. but all dont want to play i think he also sian.. hahahaz.. : D after that big david send us all home...
darling and wei zhi play L4D awhile than after that go sleep liao cause they tomorrow got work... but darling say he cant sleep cause not used to so early sleep but too bad he tml got work.. so no choice have to force himself to sleep.. than i slept at about 5am... msging shi li all the while.. hahahaz..
today, 25/10/2010:
slept until going to 5pm than wake up..
PIG SIA ME!!!!!
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haven done anything yet today so will update again later bah... hahahaz...
i was really happy cause darling kiss my head before he left for work.. i so happy although i was half sleeping and half awake...
(>*-*>)blessed&happygal
Friday, October 22, 2010; 10/22/2010 02:37:00 PM
(;_;).... aN0th3R bIg bL0w .....(;_;)
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(-.-)♥ KOH GIN SHENG (-.-)♥
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i saw something that make me have hope.. and when,
i was about to have hope all this comes in...
[小 says (1:43 PM):
*so u dont hv any feeling for her right?
*then tell her strieght
小 says (1:44 PM):
*u mean she keep pestering u
*then wat did u do?]
i dont know want to cry or want to angry or want to give up...
for that second i was so stuned... it is another blow for me... (.-.)
i have no mood to go anywhere already.. pay than pay... SORRY GIRLS!!!
how i wish to see you all and gather with you all, talk and chit chat...
but than i u-turn and go and find someone else...
i did many and too many stupid things yesterday and today... thought that there is a chance...
but i think i think too much liao... in order to cool down yesterday, i sat at the kitchen for an hour reading my story book till 4am in the morning...
(+_+#) WHY MUST I DO SO MUCH STUPID THINGS... (#+_+)
when i already know that i wont get it want..
this morning also...
˙˙ɟlǝsʎɯɹoɟʎluoʞuıɥʇoʇpɹɐʇsɐqɐɯɐıʇɐɥʇsɯǝǝsʇıʇnq˙˙ʇıdlǝɥʇ,uɐɔıʇɐɥʇɥɔnɯooʇnoʎǝʌolıʇnq
˙˙ǝɔɐǝdoɯǝʌɐɥpuɐɹǝɟɟnsnoʎǝʞɐɯpuɐnoʎoʇsǝoƃʇɐɥʇǝuoǝɥʇɯɐısǝʎ˙˙ǝʞoɾɐsɐʇıǝʞɐʇǝuoʎɹǝʌǝ,noʎɹoɟǝʌolʎɯpuɐƃuıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝʇnqnoʎǝʌolı
i took so much of my courage.. but i am not angry... : D i will never be angry with you ever..
cause you never do anything wrong at all..
updated.....
after he come back from interiew we went out... actually we want to order KFC to eat want.. but than too bad the stuff we want the KFC never deliver... so in the end we at market packet and go back to eat.. i bought lasi lemak and he buy the kuay chup... as normal... hahahaz.. nothing much to eat... the mee huan kuay never open.. so i sian cannot eat...
the him wanted to go shealter want... and went we both go to the market on the way we say the YY, all this... hmm.. he go call them and let go of my hand.. feel bad but than i decided it is okies.. so i never make noise.. hahahaz.. i think it is childish to make noise just because he go touch and call the girls.. hahahaz.. i not that childish... : D
we went home eat all this than he go and sleep.. SO PIG right... hahahaz... : D
i was shocked.. he changed his facebook status to in a relationship.. but never put who... i am doubting.. but than i think again i shouldnt doubt... he might be referring to me... i also dont know.. : D should i be happy or not??... i feel weird.. haiiz...
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(>*-*>)itistimegal
Thursday, October 21, 2010; 10/21/2010 11:09:00 PM
(♥_♥) 恶作剧之吻 (♥_♥)
(♥_♥) 恶作剧之吻 (♥_♥)
very normal day today.. happily sleeping but so many phone calls that make me wake up.. hahahaz... : D
but sleep so long also no good.. : D
hmm.. today the him went for an interview in the afternoon 3pm.. before he left he gave me S$10 for me to go down buy LOR MEE for me and him at 3.30pm... : D yesterday his army friend in facebook say he fu**ing pissed with him.. haiiz i dont understand what they thinking sia.. why they all so childish and petty want... play mahjong only marz... the him dont want to go and play also cannot... must force him to go... he dont want to play one reason is that he already out of job for almost a month liao lerz.. and dont want to waste money on mahjong... (like you know mahjong got win got lose want marz...)!!!!! the other reason is that he got interview at 3pm...
dont understand sia.. like mahjong is their life like that... i crazy for mahjong also dont have crazy until like that sia... dots...!!!!!! so petty... dont understand sia.. why not go and wear skirt... one of them still tell the him to cancel his interview and go play sia... HE IS ABSOUTLY OUT OF HIS MIND!!!!!!!!!! dots... i yesterday was thinking that today after he come back from interview ask the him to go find them after he finish his interview... so childish dont play mahjong only marz.. also want to scold him on facebook... haiiz... small kid, small kid....
after he come back before i can tell him than he say that he is going over liao.. hahahaz.. this one i also know cause he dont say i will also ask him to go over.. i dont want later they think is i ask him not to go over want... but even if i ask him to go over anot they also wont know want.. hahahaz... : D the person that ask him not to go for interview one horz... i really dont know want to say what sia... like small kid say what like friend dont friend like that and somemore horz.. still say what got important things to tell him than say want to meet want.. all these are all excuses lorz.. got important things can just say on the phone marz.. must play mahjong or play lan than can say maez???.... NONSENSE SIA!!!!! i thought that friend dont friend this kind of things happen only in primary school... dont understand why will appear infront of a bunch of people that has finished their NS (when people say that guys that finished NS will become more mature..)... haiiz... dont understand...
but nvm after all i know that he will go over want... : D i also know he wont so early come back want.. their pattern i already see until dont want to see liao.. as long as the him is happy can liao... hahahaz... : D
i thought guys shouldnt be so xiao qi want.. hahahaz... seems that i am wrong sia.. : D worst than girls... when they xiao qi the time... *CE CE CE*
now i waiting for the him to come back home... hahahaz..
I did a personality test today by my dear friend SHI LI...
1. When you walk into a forest imagine what is the first animal you see.. (Butterfly)
2. Second animal that you will see.. (Rabbit)
3. Next you will walk pass a small small house.. 1. You ingore 2. You will knock and go in. 3. You will rush in. (I will knock and go in.)
4. When you go into the house. There are 20 candles.. How many will you light up? (All)
5. In the house you want the table to be round or square? (Round)
6. At the table how many chairs will you put there? (5)
7. There is a container.. What kind of material will you want it to be? (Glass)
8. The volume of water in the container? (Full)
9. You walk out of the house there is a waterfall. How fast is it? Rate from 1-10. (7)
10. There is a pond. How many swans are inside? (10)
11. You want to cross the pond to the other side. How will you do it? Jump into the water and swim over or others? (I will find another way/route/path to walk over to the other side)
THE INTERPRETATION IS:
1. I have the character of a butterfly. (have to check what is the character of a butterfly "p)
2. Rabbit is my lifetime partner. *my the him is rabbit... : D hehehehehehehez.....*
3. I choose to knock and go in means that i am ready for a new relationship.
4. I choose to light up all the candles means you are a very generous person.. *Thank you! Thank you!*
5. I choose round means that i am not a stubborn person, can take people's advise, and will never know how people look at myself.. (partly true, partly not true.)(i only stubborn in my love life that makes the interpertaion false, but i other than that i am fine and will listen to advise, which make the interpertation true.. hahahaz...)
6. I choose 5 chairs means how friendly i am.. (Which mean i am neutral.. hahahaz..)
7. I choose glass means the material of my heart.. (Which means that my heart is easily broken.. no wonder i cry so easily... hahahaz..)
8. I choose full for the volume of water means that i will giv my partner my full/whole heart.... (that is so true... : D)
9. for the waterfall part is so hahahaz.. so i wont interpret.. : D hehehehez.. *but you can ask me personally...*
10. I choose 10 swans in the pond means that i have 10 good friends... (thinking my 10 good friends are who... **let me count**) 1. DARLING 2. NETCHANOK 3. CHERYL TAN 4. JING YI 5. QUN YING 6. LILIAN 7. SARAH 8. GUO WEI 9. KUWANG WEI 10. ANGELA | hmm just nice.. : ) |
11. I choose to take another path rather than jump in and swim over means that i think before i do things.. (which is true.. but to alot of people it is not true... : )
people you can try to ask others about this too... : ) wait the him come back i also want to ask... hehehehez... : D
(>*-*>)happygal
Tuesday, October 19, 2010; 10/19/2010 11:57:00 PM
＿|￣|○ mArri3d 0R n0t mArri3d ＿|￣|○
＿|￣|○ mArri3d 0R n0t mArri3d ＿|￣|○
anyother day of destresss.....
i cried infront of him again.. i ren already... but because i heard and see things that i dont want to see...
not because that he is going to the basketball court to play with them.. nor is it that Benji ask him to go together with alan and him to go find YenTing....
is that i got another msg and this is not from the previous girllllllll... this time i dont know who... cause i dont have the number.. this time i never go and reply.. i just delete away that message... but i read the message i am so damm sad... (;_;).... this time the message was more violent... scolding me a "mother fu**er", a "bitch" and more... i tried to not show it out.. but than lying on his shoulder i all of the sudden cried... i tried hard not to let him see already...
i get all this humilations not one or two times already... i should be used to it already... : (
i never say anything about this message.. i wont want him to know... cause i know that even if i tell the him, he isnt going to do anything.. cause he say liao lerz.. "i not his girlfriend.."
i changed my blog song to this song 到死都爱你 from the new korean drama 大物.. i put this song cause i think it is nice.. and one other reason is also i want to tell the him the title of the song... got someone told me something interesting.. hahahaz.. one way to get his heart.. but than i feel that no point want.. and it is not going to work.. it will make the him run more further... (u_u)
pratically.. today i cancelled alot of things.. and did alot things that are successful... (wont say what it is... : D )
the him came back from basketball... we order KFC delivery... hahahaz.. i dont really like drumlets... but than is he buy want... so i eat also very happy.. hahahaz... : D while watching we watched a amercian army show.. haiiz.. nice show.. "TEARS OF THE SUN"....
haiiz.. i am damm sad cause today the him at basketball court hurt himself... the other leg... haiiz.. the whole thing swollen liao lerz.. i see liao i so sad sia.. : ( haiiz.. but i say him he also dont want to listen than how.. maybe if it is that person he will listen... as long as he recover i will do whatever it takes... : (
(>*-*>)painfulgal
look at the happy times... i wish all this can go back and i am willing to wait for him... cause he is my all.. friends i can have and can be made but they wont last long with you... only him... if given the chance everything can go back want... hoping that the him can give me another chance... 
Dr3aMs to Get MaRRieD to tHaT hIm
ZT
February 2008