f0ReVeR y0uRs

(~_^) S00000 3aRly Wak3 Up.. (^_~)

2011-06-11T10:41:00.007+08:00

(~_^) S00000 3aRly Wak3 Up.. (^_~)

actually not so early... i slept at around 2 plus going to 3am today morning... cause i watch show and chatting with Yi Qi... but i was so bad... never tell her than i sleepy liao than go and sleep... hahahax... now is around 10.47am liao lerx...

wake up first thing i never go brush teeth... EEEEEEEE!!!!!! DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!..... hahahaz.... first thing i do is to take Ju Hua Cha for the him to drink... second thing is to wash the clothes... after that i go blog liao lerx... than go and brush my teeth... after that i will wait for his father to wake up than sweep and mop the floor... so fast another week liao lerx than all so dirty... ""shake head"" incredibly fast sia at how the dust and dirt pile up... haiix... "p

okies liao lerx... i going to do housework liao lerx... haiix stomach pain sia... if not too pain i shall pretand in front of him not pain at all... because it is still bearable... : D later than update again okies!!!! CHEERS!!! ^^//

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i finished the housework in 2 hours.... : ) so slow sia me today... : ) but i was happy to do them.. feel that it is what i can do and is like my job... i am happy doing so... : )

i cried... the him left me... he really left me... i am no more his wife... i cried and cried for so long.. i am tired liao lerx... i ate alot of it.. now i am going to sleep liao lerx... i send him stupid sms again... HOW STUPID OF ME!!!! i DESERVE IT!!!!! i love the guy that hates me...

I LOVE YOU FOREVER LAOGONG!!!!!

i put all my medicine inside my drink... and going to sleep now.. : D see how long i can sleep bahx... : D he wont care and wont reply me anymore...

my head is spinning already... i going to sleep now... i love you my blog and love my husband forever... may my presence stay with you... : D good night laogong... good night blog... let me have a good time sleeping... : ) shall listen to 88.3FM as i sleep...

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wake up liao lerx... proof that the medicine is not strong enough... i wake up the time... the him at home liao lerx... : D i am damm sad that i cry myself to sleep... he so hate me... he totally dont want to see me...

his father come home the time in the afternoon ask me "EAT ALREADY ANOT??" VERY CARING SIA I SO HAPPY!!! at night i wake up the time i walk outside he dont know how to use the electric cooker ask me how to use.. SO CUTE!!! hahahaz...

i also dont know.. now my stomach so pain.. watch show awhile dont want to watch liao lerx... like forcing myself to laugh like that... i want to go sleep again.. head still spinning... cry myself to sleep??... nitex...

(>*_*>)notsoearlybirdgal

luvs@pooh&you

(♥_♥) HaPPy 4 YRs 5 M0nThs AnniV3rsaRy (♥_♥)

2011-06-10T20:58:00.001+08:00

(♥_♥) HaPPy 4 YRs 5 M0nThs AnniV3rsaRy (♥_♥)

10/06/2011.....

today is me and the him the 4 years 5 months anniversary... but i dont think that he will acknowledge it at all... (;_;)... but it is okies.. at least he is at home and not outside... at least he is by my side although we never go out... ^^// hahahaz... i VERY VERY HAPPY!!!!! i not sure he knows anot but at least i will feel damm happy de... : )

today i again half day than go home liao lerx... today morning i wake up shocked... wont tell you why... hehehehex.... but i am happy i lying in his arms... : ) hehehehehez..... i dont want to let you know liao... from how i type you of course can see how happy i am right.... : ) hahahahaz... mood real good!!!! good until i pain i also dont care liao lerx... : ) hahahahaz...

today at work actually i want to clear my things want but than the server down than i cannot do anything at all... but than i dont go and fan him to bring up the server fast cause i know that he is really stress liao lerx... other people keep go and fan him tell him the server down all this... at least i must understand how he feels so i dont go and disturb him... i didnt talk to him and make him angry... UNDERSTANDING right me!!! proud of myself... hehehehz... "" BUT CANNOT TOO PROUD ARX MELISSA!!!!! "" : D

than i nothing to do so play my sudoku lorx... but i didnt realize that my boss behind me... until he stamp his feet.. hahahaz... i was so shocked.. but he didnt scold me, his mood today is real good the lorx... : ) hahahaz... but than server is my life without it i also cannot do anything so boss scold me i still got excuse... hahahaz...
>>>>> BAD HORX ME!!! BAD EXAMPLE!!! BAD HR!!! >>>>>> hahahaz....

than i go in to my boss room to sign my MC before going home... he ask me "" WAH!!! WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU "" than give me that BIG BIG WIDE WIDE SMILE -_- hahahaz... so shocked sia... very the weird sia he like that smile at me... hahahaz.... : )) but never mind after that jiu okies liao lerx... : )

after that we went to the him the house downstairs eat lunch.. we all ate zhi cha today... hahahaz... haven tell you with who right... okies... i was with the him, Soo Kim, Esther Loke, Vivien... hahahaz... we called 5 plates of food... WE ARE SO SCARY!!!! so many food sia... hahahaz... we called suan la tang, deer meat, fish, our favourite pai gu wang, and a plate of vegs... hahahaz... they all say it is really nice... : ) frankly speaking the food there is nice want... : ) hahahaz... than i sooooooo happy lorxxxxx.... the him help me to take deer meat for me to try... : ) smile until i dont know how to stop sia... see small small things you also so happy... "" CRAZY ARX YOU MELISSA "" hahahaz... after that i go home than rest awhile than sleep liao lerx.. i wake up the time the him come home liao lerx... i wake up to cook JU HUA CHA for the family to drink... : ) than go and watch my TV show... okies that is my day today!!!

CAN SEE THAT I HAVING A VERY AND EXTREMELY HAPPY DAY TODAY RIGHT!!! ^^//

okies gonna stop here than go catch up my drama liao lerx... SEE YA!!!! : )

(>*_*>)veryextremelyhappygaltoday

luvs@pooh&you

o(╥﹏╥)o cRyinG?? n0?? Y3s?? :::::: o(╥﹏╥)o L0V3s hIm m0sT... o(╥﹏╥)o

2011-06-09T17:44:00.003+08:00

o(╥﹏╥)o cRyinG?? n0?? Y3s?? :::::: o(╥﹏╥)o L0V3s hIm m0sT... o(╥﹏╥)o

yes i am crying... why... cause i am really sad... no matter how you humiliate me i can ren want... why cause i still love you... still want to be your wife and the mother of your children.. why dont give me that chance.. eyes swollen again... i dont want to cry infront of you cause i want to be strong infront of you to prove to you i can want... (;_;):::::::::::::: asking me to disappear from your life you really want that??.... that you tell your friend and they come and attack me... how you attack me i also can... but didnt expect that they come and attack me again..

Guess What They Say My Beloved And Always Love Husband.... let me tell you bahx... second time in my life someone called me a bitch, slut, still a THIRD PARTY... that say from the start you be with me is because you want to prove to others you can chase me and win other eople... you from the start never love me before... ONCE ALSO DONT HAVE!!!! you just want to sleep with me... after that throw me away... but didnt expect that i will stick to you like a gen bi chong....

i choose not to believe them, but i still cried... than today i send the him a message saying "laogong i think i will give you some peace.. talk i wont talk to you call also wont.. you pretend i dont exist bahx.. cause i wont.. you want do what i dont care liao.. cause i dont have the strength to care.. anything i will message you only.. if you want reply me or not i also fine liao now.. i hate myself for loving you so much and you hate me so much.. that you tell others about me that now i kanna scold by your friends that actually dont know what happen.."

but this message is not from my heart... i dont want you to not care me... dont want to cannot talk to you.. dont want to cannot call you... i say that i dont want to care, but than i will still care but not so open already this time... i dont want you dont reply me... i DONT HATE MYSELF LOVING you... i will ignore what your friends said to me... WHY?? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!!!

"WHO WILL UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL AND WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH??"

i dont want to leave you and really dont want you to leave me... who will understand...

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today i go to work half day in the morning cause Soo Kim and Vivien got course and Jess is on leave, therefore i have to stand in... i have no strength at all... when we are at office and walking up the stairs he ask me " I rest so much, how come still like dieing like that " i also dont know how to reply him.... after that Srini (My Boss) called me... i thought what happen later kanna scolding... but actually not... just want to let me know something... THEY ARE SO NICE!!!! : ) they are very concern about me, still ask me to go home... : D hahahaz... after that all the things i state up there is what i want to say here...

time pass very fast... than lunch liao lerx... i when back the him fetch me home.. than me, the him and esther loke when to eat lor mee... but i dont have any wei ko... so i didnt eat much... I AM SO HAPPY EATING WITH HIM!!! see eating with him only so happy liao.. he knows?? nope he dont know.. [%^&] after that he still say bye bye to me... making me even more happy... but i doubt he knows... : )...

reach home.. rest awhile and go see doctor... but i so stupid... go down the doctor close liao.. stupid me still sit outside to wait for so long... diao... : ( waste my time... go home than sleep liao lerx... just wake up want to go see doctor liao... : ) any updates later than i update again... : )....

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i just came back from seeing the doctor... WAH!!!! i waited for so long until my head very pain sia.... : ( than the doctor ask me things i not paying attention... hahahax... so weird he ask me things i like gong gong like that dont know what i talking also... : D so funny... hahahax...

came back home see the him at home also never call me or msg me to ask where i am... i know he doesnt bother already... cause i know that he thinks all that i say is bluffing only... it is okies... once twice than no more liao lerx... i almost talk to him sia... how i wish to talk to him... (;_;)....

the doctor gave me two days MC for me to rest at home... ^^// gonna have a good rest and dont stress myself too much until the next review at NUH... i hope this time they can see something... cause i dont want a relapse again...

he is going out now... i didnt ask where he is going... i see he take his car keys... maybe going to find them again... what can i say.. i say i willl give him peace liao wont talk to him... how i wish i want to ask him if he where he is going... i dont know what to do... keep quiet and cry quietly??.... (;_;)::::::::::::::

(>*_*>)lovelygalthatloveshimonly

luvs@pooh&him

♡ ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ L0V3S N3V3R Di3 ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ ♡

2011-06-08T13:05:00.004+08:00

♡ ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ L0V3 ≡(▔﹏▔)≡ ♡

today i did not went to work again... so bad my attendance!!!! haiix... the pain in the morning is so painful that i fainted not knowing until about 12 plus like that my colleague, Soo Kim called me to ask if i was okies anot... if not i dont know whether i still can wake up anot...

i was wondering in the morning the him got call me wake up??... cause i cant feel anything at all... i just woke up no strength looking at my phone a single message or a single call from the him also dont have...

not going to post too long today as my stomach is really killing me... like want to take my life away any second... !!! i am so afraid that i can never wake up again !!!

who will understand this kind of scared and worries... but my doctor dont recommend me to go under knifes now that i can stay on medications.. therefore my next appointment will be on next friday at the wellness centre and on 1st July 2011 at clinic C...

yesterday on facebook my ex-classmate so called of work in NUH... i was so afraid she knows what happen to me... cause she knows that clinic C is mostly for surgical cases.. therefore i just say that i am fine... : ) even if she visit me i think i also wont say.. i was so stupid to say that you can come to visit me.. later she will know everything... but what i was doing was being polite...

i dont even know that if the him is worried about me anot... cause a single call a single message has not reached me yet... if he has send me a message or give me a call to ask me how am i, i will be trilled till got pain also become no pain... but he didnt... he doesnt bother??...

maybe i should give him more time.. cause i know he not easy to walk back into the path.. he still wants to play.. hates me... which is the worst fear i have... haiix i miss him alots now... hoping to see him... which i know he does not want to see me... but than no matter what he do to me... i still love him...

look at the happy times... i wish all this can go back and i am willing to wait for him... cause he is my all.. friends i can have and can be made but they wont last long with you... only him... if given the chance everything can go back want... hoping that the him can give me another chance...

i dont have any more problems with his family like... i feel that they are starting to like me... like his sister... we can chit chat happily.. : D his father will auto talk to me and i also will do the same.. we can laugh and say things like the news watch tv... : D all this can be done cause i was given a chance to do so...

ooooookkkkiiiiiieeeeesssss!!!!!! ii am going to stop here... my pain is coming back again... i want to go and sleep but still scared that i sleep liao cant wake up... but sleeping can make me forget the pain i having now... if got updates i will update again later... ^^//

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updating again.... just woke up not long... after sleeping the whole day i woke up with a very bad headache... everything i using is bullying me even the him also... the television that i watching want to watch in korean language dont know what happen cannot change the language...

i called the him or talk to him he like dont want to answer me... haiix... i really dont know what to do... (;_;)...
i just want to be by his side no matter what happens... i will just take in everything on my shoulders cause by doing that i can save myself... the blow to me is real big i had a relapse again... i can 100% feel that he thinks that i am bluffing.. i am okies want..

i want to go out to watch movie with him today,, but i dont think he will agree to it.. as long as i stay in my position can liao lerx.. i will also be very happy.. although he dont take me as his wife,, i will do what a wife should do... that is one of my friends tell me want...

DO ANYTHING!!! GIVE YOUR 100% BUT THAN ALWAYS ALWAYS REMEMBER NOT TO EXPECT 100% OF RETURNS!!! ESPICALLY FROM THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST!!!

i dont dare to open my mouth now to ask him he wants to go out with me.. cause i dont want to get disappointed.. ^^// save alot of troubles... i scared to ask.. somemore i not really well if i ask him to go out he will defiantly think i faking.. but i will try to be strong infront of him.. : )

update again later bahx if free... : )

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(>*_*>)fullofhopegal

luvs@pooh&you

(;_;) An0th3r sAd dAy T0 g3t mIsUnd3RstANd by th3 HiM (;_;)

2011-06-07T19:03:00.004+08:00

i dont know where to write to express the right feelings and love and friendship that i always treasure with him and my new found friends which is the few young ladies... i also dont know how to let him know the truth of many things... actually loving him i should let him go want.. but than i cannot do so.. cause i really love him too much.. and i need him.. not for any other reasons but just one simple reason, that i love him.. i have so much to share with him... and willing to do anything.. but will he appreciate me??... many of his friends tell me what he did outside but i doubt he know what they tell me... they all told me that he is a playboy and he has no real feelings for any girls want.. but if i like that tell him, he wont believe that it was them that tell me... like shi li she tell me got eyes see want will know that he is a flirt.. haiiz.. like today.. suddenly gotten splash my hot water by my beloved...

I really dont understand why i was gotten misunderstand by..

i really dont know what i do wrong.. it is wrong for me to make friends...

i dont make friends you say that i am not very welcoming... than i make friends you say that i am doing overboard..

why must my intension always gotten misunderstands from the him??... cant he see that i want to be a good wife... i dont want to dont have him... i cannot dont have him... who will understand how i feell... i dont want you to hate me... cause i really dont know what i do that make you hate me...

if i really did something wrong why not tell me... i really dont want to get misunderstandings that can cause our relationship to become worst.. is the him dont want to give me that chance... the him dont know how hurt i am...

he keep thinking that i cannot be his wife.. cause he didnt let me try.. he loves another girl?? no matter what i will trust him... cause I LOVE HIM!!!!

i cannot dont have him... i dont want to cry.. i want to be strong..

i am so sad today because of my health.. but his kiss of love and hands of warmth comfort me...

with him around me i feel so secure and safe.. without him my life really will fall want... he is my pillar of strength... i put this song is because i really love him... i am scared he really walk out of my life and really hate me and really dont want me anymore... i will cannot take it want...

after so long of trying... at last Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos are willing to go out with me and make friends with me... and i really have that heart to make friends with them.. not only for his sake but also mine.. : D

i cried again today after i gotten the results... recently i always cry until my eyes real swollen.. last time the misunderstandings with Yi Qi, Yuan Yi and Jos and Li Zhen are alll cleared... : D so i am rather happy.. but his words suddenly attack me when all is well...

DONT MAKE ME HATE YOU... BECAUSE IT WILL BREAK OFF ALL OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WE WILL BECOME STRANGER... YOU BETTER CONTROL ON WHAT YOU ARE DOING..

i really dont know what he is referring to??... and he is so unwilling to tell me... i really hope that he will let me know cause all this misunderstandings are so not suppose to be there.. if he dont want me to make friends with them just let me know.. i wont talk to them anymore...

(>*_*>)gottenmisunderstandedgal

luvs@pooh&you

v l0nG TiM3 N0 S33 v

2010-11-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

woah it's a long time since my last post.. : D hahahaz... thought that everyday i will have the time to at least post something on the wall.. : D but recently was so busy with work that i come home everyday so tired...

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i am happy with my job and will continue to work there and will work hard.. for my future.. so long never go back to poly to see my friends liao.. dont know they still rmb me anot.. or forget me liao lerz.. : D hahahaz.. but than i really like them as my friends.. : D

really have a peaceful life this whole month.. : D never cry all this.. haiiz but than sometimes my stomach wont let me go.. every morning confirm got stomach pain.. but i bluff the him say that it was just because i eat something thats why will like that.. hahahahaz.. i with him i so happy.. pain also become no pain.. : D

my medicine want to no more already.. have to wait one day he morning not around than i go to check - up. Replenish my medicine.. but than i scared later i spend my money on medicine than after that i dont know how to tell him.. haiiz have to find a excuse.. but than later i scared that he say me keep spending money on other no use the things.. haiiz.. hahahaz.. but nvm as long as i am healthy than i can live a better life with him.. : D hahahaz..

sian sia... tml is PAY DAY!!!!! i am so happy sia.. : D can go and shop and watch the movie that is coming out.. called TANGLED... from disney want.. hahahaz.. i want to go watch with my poly friends but dont know they free anot sia.. : D haiiz... if not i want to go watch with my the him.. hahahaz...

tomorrow will be a busy day... have to sleep early today... but than i want to wait till 12 midnight than see my pay come in than i happy.. than go and sleep.. hahahaz.. tomorrow wake up go work, after work go westmall meet my classmate than we go to singapore polytechnic to attend a concert which is conducted my my ex-secondary school, after that at night go and eat KFC with my that him (the newly opened spicy pepper chicken), after that got time we go to IMM to shop awhile.. but i think by than will be a little late liao lerz.. hahahaz.. but than that is the plan.. if there are any changes than say bah... hahahaz..

this week will be a busy week cause it is my BIRTHDAY... YEAH!!!!!! 5th of DEC....

i am so excited sia.. dont know how the him will celebrate with me.. hahahaz.. 4th od dec will go back home to have steam boat with my parents.. :D so happy.. : D hahahaz..

going to count down to my pay... see ya.. will try to update as soon as possible.. :D love you all..

(>*-*>)happyandloved

luvs@pooh&you

(n_n) hAppY HaPPy dAy (n_n)

2010-10-25T17:43:00.000+08:00

starting of a new week starting of a new day... everything will be different (i hope)....

didnt really update last two days cause i am dammmmeeeeddddddd lazy!!!!!!! hahahaz... but gonna have to update cause pass two days i am really, EXTREMELY, really, HAPPY...

saturday, 23/10/2010:

nothing much about that day, wait wake u play computer, after that msg my friend shi li...
she was at work in chua chu kang @ a singtel shop... wait for her to off work than go and eat dinner together with both our loved ones.. hahahaz... : D my darling went down to go and play basketball that day and injured his hand.. haiiiz.... dont understand y he dont want to listen to me???..... now both his hands and legs are all hurt... damm sad to see him like that... (;_;)....

after that the four of us plus jimson went to market to have our dinner... hahahaz... wah shi li is so cool sia... she having fever and sick and still can eat so hot... COOL!!!.... hahahaz... me, darling and weizhi ate lasi lemak.. hahaha... jimson so funny say dont want to eat than after we all eat finish liao he go and buy chicken wing to eat.. i assume that he see us all eating like so nice than he also hungry liao lerz... : D hahahaz...

went back home.. than weizhi, shi li, and darling play L4D until 5am in the morning sia... darling say that the both of them very hyper-active hahahaz... : D

too bad i dont know how to play, plus dont have account, PLUS darling laptop is a grandfather laptop cannot support the game... : D hahahaz... next time i bring my own laptop than ask my darling to teach me how to play... he so funny sia... only teach me how to hit the zombies and shoot them hahahaz... : D

sunday, 24/10/2010:

hmm... me and my darling woke up at about 3plus in the afternoon... hahahaz.. i knew it that he cant wake up to go to visit xiao hei in the camp.. hahahaz... : D in the end got ppl say he lazy and put areoplane... : ( who ask him... haiiiz...

after that we went to KFC to have lunch.. : D nice sia.. but dont know what happen to him... it seems that he no wei kou eat little bit jiu say full liao lerz... : D hahahaz... i was so happy... he said that if i get myself a job right than next time BOTH OF US CAN BUY A CAR TOGETHER!!!!!! wah i hear liao damm happy sia... : D mouth smile until want to crack liao lerz... : D hahahahahaz...

after that we both go home and than he went down to play basketball again... : (

i msg shi li ask her where is she... it was about 7 plus liao... i almost forgot to go down market there the photoshop to get my darling's photo.... hahahaz... later kanna scold sia... luckily shi li msg me than i see the time.. WAH SO LATE LIAO SIA!!!!!

than wei zhi also want to go down basketball court, so i go and meet shi li at the basketball court after that go and collect the photos.. hahahaz.. shi li say my darling so white.. actually it is true... thats why he is called "XIAO BAI" hahahaaz... : D

before i go down i still take my own sweet time to prepare.. haiiz... must change my habit liao...

!!!!!BE MORE HARDWORKING!!!!!

i was about to go down shi li called me saying the girls are all downstairs want to meet other place anot... i was like haiiz... than i think again.. "Y SHOULD I SCARED THEM CAUSE I ALREADY GET MY STATUS BACK LIAO LERZ...." so i like this tell shi li.. but than i was really scared... in fact i dont want to see them... so i go down i try not to look at them... but than i still go and see... than i saw the person that hate me the most keep looking at me... so i go find shi li than faster walk off liao.. i didnt even bother to say hi to anyone... haiiz...

after that me and shi li go and take photo liao, pass by the bubble tea shop and buy water for ourselves and for the both of them... : D i so auntie sia.. than on the way back i thinking want to go there anot... cause the girls are there... : ( but than halfway back i saw them all walking away... i tried not to look at them and pretand they are not there... but i know they all staring at me... but i was happy that they left... cause i dont have the burden when i sit down there... i dont know want to try make friends with them anot.. and forget that they once like that treat me... haiiz..

should i take the first step to make friends with them????

both me and shi li sot already... sit at the basketball court not see them play basketball but go and play the ICE TYCOON... play until we both sot already... hahahaz... everyone think that we all sot liao... play until so siao... hahahaz... : D than edmund lend my phone to call his brother.. i was shocked sia.. caused i thought allof them got the girls than wont want to talk to me liao lerz... hahahaz... i was so sorry to gary caused he ask me for time than i play game until so siao... i didnt really go and reply him!!! was so RUDE of me... haiiz.. next time than i bu chang okies... so sorry... : D hahahaz...

after that four of us plus big david went to eat dinner at the market.. WAH his car is very big and expensive sia... : D nice car, sit also very the su fu... hahahaz... : D but poor big david... he ownself eat only, cause the four of us not very the hungry... me and shi li go and play the ice tycoon again... haiiz.. must control myself liao... hahahaz... : D after that we all send shi li home... cause got ppl going to her house to play mahjong.. actually can see darling want to play mahjong want.. but all dont want to play i think he also sian.. hahahaz.. : D after that big david send us all home...

darling and wei zhi play L4D awhile than after that go sleep liao cause they tomorrow got work... but darling say he cant sleep cause not used to so early sleep but too bad he tml got work.. so no choice have to force himself to sleep.. than i slept at about 5am... msging shi li all the while.. hahahaz..

today, 25/10/2010:

slept until going to 5pm than wake up..

PIG SIA ME!!!!!
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haven done anything yet today so will update again later bah... hahahaz...
i was really happy cause darling kiss my head before he left for work.. i so happy although i was half sleeping and half awake...

(>*-*>)blessed&happygal

luvs@pooh&you

(;_;).... aN0th3R bIg bL0w .....(;_;)

2010-10-22T14:37:00.011+08:00

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(-.-)♥ KOH GIN SHENG (-.-)♥

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i saw something that make me have hope.. and when,
i was about to have hope all this comes in...

[小 says (1:43 PM):

*so u dont hv any feeling for her right?

*then tell her strieght

小 says (1:44 PM):

*u mean she keep pestering u

*then wat did u do?]

i dont know want to cry or want to angry or want to give up...
for that second i was so stuned... it is another blow for me... (.-.)

i have no mood to go anywhere already.. pay than pay... SORRY GIRLS!!!
how i wish to see you all and gather with you all, talk and chit chat...
but than i u-turn and go and find someone else...

i did many and too many stupid things yesterday and today... thought that there is a chance...
but i think i think too much liao... in order to cool down yesterday, i sat at the kitchen for an hour reading my story book till 4am in the morning...

(+_+#) WHY MUST I DO SO MUCH STUPID THINGS... (#+_+)

when i already know that i wont get it want..

this morning also...

˙˙ɟlǝsʎɯɹoɟʎluoʞuıɥʇoʇpɹɐʇsɐqɐɯɐıʇɐɥʇsɯǝǝsʇıʇnq˙˙ʇıdlǝɥʇ,uɐɔıʇɐɥʇɥɔnɯooʇnoʎǝʌolıʇnq
˙˙ǝɔɐǝdoɯǝʌɐɥpuɐɹǝɟɟnsnoʎǝʞɐɯpuɐnoʎoʇsǝoƃʇɐɥʇǝuoǝɥʇɯɐısǝʎ˙˙ǝʞoɾɐsɐʇıǝʞɐʇǝuoʎɹǝʌǝ,noʎɹoɟǝʌolʎɯpuɐƃuıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝʇnqnoʎǝʌolı

i took so much of my courage.. but i am not angry... : D i will never be angry with you ever..

cause you never do anything wrong at all..

updated.....

after he come back from interiew we went out... actually we want to order KFC to eat want.. but than too bad the stuff we want the KFC never deliver... so in the end we at market packet and go back to eat.. i bought lasi lemak and he buy the kuay chup... as normal... hahahaz.. nothing much to eat... the mee huan kuay never open.. so i sian cannot eat...

the him wanted to go shealter want... and went we both go to the market on the way we say the YY, all this... hmm.. he go call them and let go of my hand.. feel bad but than i decided it is okies.. so i never make noise.. hahahaz.. i think it is childish to make noise just because he go touch and call the girls.. hahahaz.. i not that childish... : D

we went home eat all this than he go and sleep.. SO PIG right... hahahaz... : D

i was shocked.. he changed his facebook status to in a relationship.. but never put who... i am doubting.. but than i think again i shouldnt doubt... he might be referring to me... i also dont know.. : D should i be happy or not??... i feel weird.. haiiz...

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(>*-*>)itistimegal

luvs@pooh&you

(♥_♥) 恶作剧之吻 (♥_♥)

2010-10-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

(♥_♥) 恶作剧之吻 (♥_♥)

very normal day today.. happily sleeping but so many phone calls that make me wake up.. hahahaz... : D

but sleep so long also no good.. : D

hmm.. today the him went for an interview in the afternoon 3pm.. before he left he gave me S$10 for me to go down buy LOR MEE for me and him at 3.30pm... : D yesterday his army friend in facebook say he fu**ing pissed with him.. haiiz i dont understand what they thinking sia.. why they all so childish and petty want... play mahjong only marz... the him dont want to go and play also cannot... must force him to go... he dont want to play one reason is that he already out of job for almost a month liao lerz.. and dont want to waste money on mahjong... (like you know mahjong got win got lose want marz...)!!!!! the other reason is that he got interview at 3pm...

dont understand sia.. like mahjong is their life like that... i crazy for mahjong also dont have crazy until like that sia... dots...!!!!!! so petty... dont understand sia.. why not go and wear skirt... one of them still tell the him to cancel his interview and go play sia... HE IS ABSOUTLY OUT OF HIS MIND!!!!!!!!!! dots... i yesterday was thinking that today after he come back from interview ask the him to go find them after he finish his interview... so childish dont play mahjong only marz.. also want to scold him on facebook... haiiz... small kid, small kid....

after he come back before i can tell him than he say that he is going over liao.. hahahaz.. this one i also know cause he dont say i will also ask him to go over.. i dont want later they think is i ask him not to go over want... but even if i ask him to go over anot they also wont know want.. hahahaz... : D the person that ask him not to go for interview one horz... i really dont know want to say what sia... like small kid say what like friend dont friend like that and somemore horz.. still say what got important things to tell him than say want to meet want.. all these are all excuses lorz.. got important things can just say on the phone marz.. must play mahjong or play lan than can say maez???.... NONSENSE SIA!!!!! i thought that friend dont friend this kind of things happen only in primary school... dont understand why will appear infront of a bunch of people that has finished their NS (when people say that guys that finished NS will become more mature..)... haiiz... dont understand...

but nvm after all i know that he will go over want... : D i also know he wont so early come back want.. their pattern i already see until dont want to see liao.. as long as the him is happy can liao... hahahaz... : D

i thought guys shouldnt be so xiao qi want.. hahahaz... seems that i am wrong sia.. : D worst than girls... when they xiao qi the time... *CE CE CE*

now i waiting for the him to come back home... hahahaz..

I did a personality test today by my dear friend SHI LI...

1. When you walk into a forest imagine what is the first animal you see.. (Butterfly)

2. Second animal that you will see.. (Rabbit)

3. Next you will walk pass a small small house.. 1. You ingore 2. You will knock and go in. 3. You will rush in. (I will knock and go in.)

4. When you go into the house. There are 20 candles.. How many will you light up? (All)

5. In the house you want the table to be round or square? (Round)

6. At the table how many chairs will you put there? (5)

7. There is a container.. What kind of material will you want it to be? (Glass)

8. The volume of water in the container? (Full)

9. You walk out of the house there is a waterfall. How fast is it? Rate from 1-10. (7)

10. There is a pond. How many swans are inside? (10)

11. You want to cross the pond to the other side. How will you do it? Jump into the water and swim over or others? (I will find another way/route/path to walk over to the other side)

THE INTERPRETATION IS:

1. I have the character of a butterfly. (have to check what is the character of a butterfly "p)

2. Rabbit is my lifetime partner. *my the him is rabbit... : D hehehehehehehez.....*

3. I choose to knock and go in means that i am ready for a new relationship.

4. I choose to light up all the candles means you are a very generous person.. *Thank you! Thank you!*

5. I choose round means that i am not a stubborn person, can take people's advise, and will never know how people look at myself.. (partly true, partly not true.)(i only stubborn in my love life that makes the interpertaion false, but i other than that i am fine and will listen to advise, which make the interpertation true.. hahahaz...)

6. I choose 5 chairs means how friendly i am.. (Which mean i am neutral.. hahahaz..)

7. I choose glass means the material of my heart.. (Which means that my heart is easily broken.. no wonder i cry so easily... hahahaz..)

8. I choose full for the volume of water means that i will giv my partner my full/whole heart.... (that is so true... : D)

9. for the waterfall part is so hahahaz.. so i wont interpret.. : D hehehehez.. *but you can ask me personally...*

10. I choose 10 swans in the pond means that i have 10 good friends... (thinking my 10 good friends are who... **let me count**) 1. DARLING 2. NETCHANOK 3. CHERYL TAN 4. JING YI 5. QUN YING 6. LILIAN 7. SARAH 8. GUO WEI 9. KUWANG WEI 10. ANGELA | hmm just nice.. : ) |

11. I choose to take another path rather than jump in and swim over means that i think before i do things.. (which is true.. but to alot of people it is not true... : )

people you can try to ask others about this too... : ) wait the him come back i also want to ask... hehehehez... : D

(>*-*>)happygal

luvs@pooh&you

＿|￣|○ mArri3d 0R n0t mArri3d ＿|￣|○

2010-10-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

＿|￣|○ mArri3d 0R n0t mArri3d ＿|￣|○

anyother day of destresss.....

i cried infront of him again.. i ren already... but because i heard and see things that i dont want to see...

not because that he is going to the basketball court to play with them.. nor is it that Benji ask him to go together with alan and him to go find YenTing....

is that i got another msg and this is not from the previous girllllllll... this time i dont know who... cause i dont have the number.. this time i never go and reply.. i just delete away that message... but i read the message i am so damm sad... (;_;).... this time the message was more violent... scolding me a "mother fu**er", a "bitch" and more... i tried to not show it out.. but than lying on his shoulder i all of the sudden cried... i tried hard not to let him see already...

i get all this humilations not one or two times already... i should be used to it already... : (

i never say anything about this message.. i wont want him to know... cause i know that even if i tell the him, he isnt going to do anything.. cause he say liao lerz.. "i not his girlfriend.."

i changed my blog song to this song 到死都爱你 from the new korean drama 大物.. i put this song cause i think it is nice.. and one other reason is also i want to tell the him the title of the song... got someone told me something interesting.. hahahaz.. one way to get his heart.. but than i feel that no point want.. and it is not going to work.. it will make the him run more further... (u_u)

pratically.. today i cancelled alot of things.. and did alot things that are successful... (wont say what it is... : D )

the him came back from basketball... we order KFC delivery... hahahaz.. i dont really like drumlets... but than is he buy want... so i eat also very happy.. hahahaz... : D while watching we watched a amercian army show.. haiiz.. nice show.. "TEARS OF THE SUN"....

haiiz.. i am damm sad cause today the him at basketball court hurt himself... the other leg... haiiz.. the whole thing swollen liao lerz.. i see liao i so sad sia.. : ( haiiz.. but i say him he also dont want to listen than how.. maybe if it is that person he will listen... as long as he recover i will do whatever it takes... : (

(>*-*>)painfulgal

luvs@pooh&you

٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ wHAt sH0uLd B3 D0N3 ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶

2010-10-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ scared ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶

10 questions that i want to ask!!!!

1. What can i do?
2. Why have it have to be done infront of someone you love?
3. Which do you preferr?
4. Can i dont be scared?
5. How can i stop all this?
6. When can i leave?
7. Have i had to see all this?
8. May i have the honour to be there?
9. Should i be given the chance and i shoule give the chance?
10. COULD THERE BE A WAY TO GET TO THAT DAY?

every night i have been having the same dream over and over again.. make me cry in my dreams.. reality already cry until tired liao lerz.. how come dream inside also want to cry..

the dreams goes like this.. simple and short than i wake up liao lerrz.... (;_;)

the him went to sentosa with that group of people.. and than one day i having dinner with the him and his good friend... i went out to get the food.. coming back the time i heard the him friend ask him what the hell he wants and why he want to do that.. i wasnt quite sure what is happening.. same as the him.. than the him ask the friend what he talking about.... the friend angrily said dont act blur and throw a lot of pictures on the table and ask him why he want to play me!!!! i was so curious i went in, put down the food and pick the pictures up to look... (.-.) shocked!!!!... every picture inside i see the him hugging another girl and can guess who.. i dont want to say out the name... after that i was so depressed ＿|￣|○ i jumped... after that i wake up already... having this kind of dream isnt very funny... i feeling of falling is so scary... having to die like this is so horrible.. bringing along with me those sadness and hurts...

thats why i keep having sleepless nights.. if not i will wake up in the middle of the night!!!!

i keep thinking alot of things.. wanting to call him or msg him.. but like i said i am so afraid that the group of people wont let me go.. so in the end i didn't...

today i discover something again.. everyday at least got one thing for me to see want...

yesterday want the favourites...

today i found out he created a new email: xiiaobaiz@hotmail.com.. and also if he also created a blog..

now he go out.. he never kiss me on my forehead before he leave... he didnt even bother... i am half awake half asleep so i know.. slowly slowly he will take away everything from me... he go and play basketball come back i keep thinking he go pasa malam with her... i stupidly go and ask him wanting to trust him... i shouldnt have go and ask... than the him left yen ting's cup at the basketball court, he wants to go get it back actually i want to help him go and buy food and take the cup want... but thinking again i dont want to go cause i scared... : ( he say me lazy i also okies... he bought nasi lemak for me and himself... came back we eat and also watch one ghost movie scary sia... : (

i ask him, he got anything he want to tell me???.. he say what... than i dont want to ask liao...

i also dont know how to ask, i am scared i get the answer that i dont want to hear... (;_;)

i dont even dare to call him darling also...

i am restricting myself already... try not to talk too much also...

pratically i think no more chance liao...

while helping him to make his leg, his army friend called him.. i think thursday the him going to play mahjong with them... seeing him keep msging the person talking on msn it hurts so much... but than i ren not to cry infront of him... now i always cry in the bath room so no one will know if not i pretand i watching a sad show.. can give me an excuse to be crying... (u_u)....

ONE STEP AT A TIME.. CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THAT RECTANGULAR STUFF...

(>*-*>)closertotheregal

luvs@pooh&you

(♥_♥) faV0uriT3s (♥_♥)

2010-10-17T22:00:00.001+08:00

(.-.) shocked and dazzeled... (.-.)

i am not inside your favourites list anymore..
my place has been taken over by a girl called PAMALA if i never spell wrongly..
i was shocked and stun for a min... when did this happen.. i want to cry.. my tears are all in my eyes.. i am so afraid that it will roll down my face infront of you...

anyway i also cannot expect anything from him anymore.. it is natural that he change someone and take my place in the him's heart.. i will not be there soon maybe...

i didn't mean to go and see the him's phone.. in the end i saw things that i aren't surpose to see.. as i type i am listening to the song 我們沒有在一起 by 劉若英... my tears just uncontrolly fall of my eyes.. but i never make a sound... i dont want the him to know i saw.. i think tomorrow they are going out.. but i will pretand i dont know and i wont go and ask also... (;_;)

i pratically dont know what to say now.. after i saw that my mind is rather blank..

before i saw this.. i was at home writing the story book that i was reading... TRUE LOVE AND OTHER DISASTERS by Rachel Gibson... her books are interesting... not meaning the sex part... i want to write haha but i now not in the mood...

i was multi-tasking.... play mahjong, writing and watching show.. wah cool right me..

the him called me... i was so happy.. : D

we went down to eat.. it was after that he batheing the time than i saw want.. i didnt eat.. cause i know that he is not in a good finacial condition to feed me.. i can ren want.. i want to try help him all that i can.. dont want to give him so much burden before i go.. i want him to have good memory of me..

i think thats all that i want to say today.. not really in a good condition to blog today...!!!! will blog again tomorrow...

(>*-*>)notafavouritegirl

luvs@pooh&you

8(>_<)8 Fr3akInG SaD bUt hAppY w33k 8(>_<)8

2010-10-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

how should i go about saying??... i also dont know how to start..

Wednesday, 13.10.2010:

i am so happy... the him send me to the SAF CMPB for my medical check-up and never say anything, like angry all this.. i am over-joyed sia.. cause i was afraid that the place is so far than the him wont want to send me there.. after that i reached he left for home this is for sure want.. but than i still tried to ask him to wait.. too bad i dont have my phone.. so he go home liao lerz.. i also know that he is tired also.. so early in the morning @ 8am.. so early sia the check-up.. acutally the check-up quite fast want.. the only thing that i wasnt happy was that.. when the NSman take my blood, he was so CHOR LOR.. he poke and take out the needle like not poke and taken out from a human with meat sia.. make until my hand until now still got the blue-balck sia.. haiiz.. other than that nothing much liao.. go home and sleep.. after that i dont rmb what happen liao lerz..

nowadays the things that i do, i hardly rmb after a day or so.. my memory is so bad now.. i dont know what is happening sia.. haiiz.. somemore at night i cant see anything.. really dark sia.. (T.T).... i also dont know what is happening.. maybe the side effects are coming out liao lerz.. and starting to take my health away liao lerz.. haiiz.. : (

Thursday, Friday, i dont really rmb what happen sia.. i forget what i did liao lerz... haiiz.. the only thing that i rmb is that i almost quarrelled with the him because of that girls.. haiiz.. i also dont want to angry and jealous want.. but i know he say all this is because he want me to leave him so he can go and chase other girls.. i know.. but....

DARLING PLEASE BE PATIENCE!!! VERY SOON I WONT BE THERE ANYMORE.. JUST BEAR WITH ME ANOTHER 1 MORE MONTH OR SO...

anyway the him keep say me fan, irriating, gen bi chong.. haiiz.. all this said by him i still can ren abit.. but than i was treatened by someone that said that is his new GIRLFRIEND... haiiz.. you know what she say to me...

are you xiao bai the EX-GF??
why are you still at his house??
you are so thick-skin..
he already on facebook put he single already and clear all your things..
why are you still pastering him and like a glue...
because of you... xiao bai cannot openly chase me..
i like him.. and he likes me.. you are the stupid person that still dont want to give up..
just f***ing f off..

there are more to all this things.. i want to let the him see want.. but than when i tried, he sided that girl.. so i end up delete all the msg and than dont want to let him know liao.. cause i know he wont do anything want.. i know he loves her and not me anymore.. she still say the him is take pity of me only.. is i ownself want to go to his house want.. and the him still tell her that he dont like me staying with him.. i also dont know how she get my number want.. i am so damm sad and i dont know what to do.. i saw all this i was damm shocked.. i have her number and than she msg the time dont want to tell me the name, but actually i have her number.. but i pretand that i dont know..

i already know they like each other.. i also not stupid.. i lost everything liao.. i know at this stage i cannot win already.. anyway i leaving soon liao lerz.. so i tell her not to worry... but she still say me.. ask me not to call or msg him and find him when he go to the basketball court.. i also know why.. so that they can be together.. than people will think that me and the him really break up liao lerz.. he dont call me darling already..

Saturday, 16.10.2010

yesterday, i was so happy... the him didnt go to the KTV with the girls.. gary, edmund, david all go with them.. i know he want to go want.. cause i heard him say.. i was sad for a moment.. but than after that i stop.. cause i think again.. he in the end never go so i am so happy (n_n).... he in the end go and play basketball.. than i meet shi li (wei zhi the girlfriend).. she also dont like the girls.. she hate them to the core.. haiiz..

who likes to see their own boyfriend to flirt with another girl.. who dont want their own boyfriend to see her more important than those girls.. who dont want their boyfriend to love and prtect them.. i also want..

but than i dont have the chance to enjoy all this liao lerz.. i know my own body want.. i know that i cannot got that day... happy married and have kids with the person i know.. (;_;)

m(_ _)m SORRY PEOPLE... I DONT KNOW THINGS WILL BECOME TILL LIKE THAT m(_ _)m

after that me and shi li meet at the bubble tea store to buy drinks for both our beloved.. i know he likes to drink milk tea so i bought for him.. after that i and shi li walked to the basketball court to find them.. shi li said that quite weird if we walk together and they will be shocked.. cause we actually dont know each other want.. hahahaz.. but i told her it is okies.. cause they both know liao.. so wont shocked.. : D

after that we both sit there and wanted to talk want.. but than too many guys there liao.. so i decided not to say anything.. if not got more trouble..

funny thing is that we sit there the time.. saw something so funny sia.. two cats at the tree behind doing that kind of things... so disgusting sia.. hahahaz.. after that shi li and wei zhi go liao.. i am the only girl there... sit and watch them play basketball.. : D

after that me jim son, yong da and the him went to the market to eat.. : ) we both eat chicken rice.. hahahaz.. they are talking about the jersery thing.. i was jking only.. the yong da go and ding me.. i was like trying to be as friendly as possiable liao.. haiiz.. : D

after that we go buy water than go home liao.. help the him to make his leg than edmund, gary and david came over to play mahjong.. but than the him dont want to play let me play.. i had real fun sia that day play mahjong.. : D play till morning about going to 1am than stop.. play one round only.. haiiz... quite sian want.. cause edmund play one round than cannot take it liao.. haiiz.. hahahaz.. (n_n) but than i had real fun.. : ) this is my day till yesterday.. today the stuff i will update later... : D

**alot of this i have to let go and give up.. cause i cannot bring it with me to the ground... (T.T)zzzzzzz......

(>*-*>)freakingsadandsickgal

luvs@pooh&you

(^^)// a n3w r00m \\(^^)

2010-10-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

hmm... today i didnt go anywhere.. stayed at home after that at night went to go see see look look a place.. :)

hmm... pratically the place isnt very nice.. and when i come home i learnt that i cant force 1...

dont care than dont care lorz.. got what big deal.. lose than lose lorz.. make use than make use lorz..

will lose one piece of meat from the body maez.. people dont appreciate what you do than forget it... play than play lorz.. they want to make fun want to play want to tease than let them lorz.. people the mouth what.. what can i do???!!!!

i do what i can do liao.. they treat you like invisiable than nvm.. at least you did your part...

anyway i am going off soon liao.. not long liao to that day... waiting for that day to come only... now can do what than do what.. want to cry want to laugh want to happy now do faster is the best.. wait next time no chance liao than will regret why now never do...

i see, i hear, i do...

where got people will care about a sick person.. of course got new wants than go for the new ones.. where got go for the old ones want... another 1 more month pals, you all can see me botak already.. not that i go into army.. but is for some other reason.. also dont know army or air force will want me anot.. cause of my condition.. hahahaz.. but who cares.. at least i tried.. (^^)//

CHEERS TO MEL MEL!!!!!!!!! (^^)//

all the best to me.. tomorrow i have to go for the medical check up at the SAF centre.. hahahaz.. : )

nites ppl...

(>*-*>)notimegal

luvs@pooh&you

^^ 10 0f 10 0f 2010 ^^ a dAy t0 b3 hAppY 0n3 ^^

2010-10-10T14:59:00.000+08:00

today is suppose to be me and the him's anniversary.. 10/10/10... nice date right... but than i doubt that the him remembered this date.. i really hope that he wont go out with other girls but go out with me instead.. at least only for today... but i think that it is impossiable.. everyone is so happy about today 10/10/10...

i also want to be happy on this date!!! can i have what i want??.. or i can only dream about it??..

yesterday i went down for dinner with the him.. and than he sits with me i am so happy but than the rest of them haiiz.. they like so hate me sia.. i am there but they treat me like i am not there like that.. infront of me keep saying the him and another girl.. say and say and say.. i want to pissed off liao.. i am so sad.. somemore they are the people that i love the most and respect the most.. thinking that no matter how much they dont like me also no need to like that want..

i am not invisiable and i exsit.. please give me some respect although i know that you all dont like me.. : (

SICKERING!!!!!! (;_;)

yes i know that i dont have any status anymore.. haiiz.. the him still say.. if i dont want to hear than next time dont come down to find him lorz.. i hear liao.. i just keep quiet cause i know i cannot say back one.. i know the look on their faces is like "wah y are you here", people also dont want you liao you still so thick skin... (;_;)..

after that they at basketball court talk talk.. infront of me keep saying what find YY LZ all this.. i know who they referring to.. i not stupid also.. haiiz.. i am damm sad and hurt.. but i keep quiet and sms on my phone.. so that i wont cry.. like i am totally not there like that.. they went to eat supper, but before that the him send me home.. david was nice to worry for me.. : ) thanks david..

after that i went home... i think the him dont know that i secretly went out and luckily i can back at around 3 plus and the him is not back.. almost later than him come back.. but he came back he and the others also came.. they watched the show MIRRORS 2.. i am so damm freaking freaked out... i want to sit with the him but he dont let.. i also know why want.. haiiz.. at night i cant sleep at all.. i am shaking all over.. so scared i cried.. but the him scolded me.. so i try to clam down.. but he still cares and hug me sleep.. : ) that is the best.. morning wake up jiu like that liao.. i think the him is going out soon.. saw him making the JERSEY or something for basketball... dont understand why they want to make when they are not in a school team or basketball team.. maybe they want to make me feel extra.. not in their group want.. as me to GET LOST... maybe i think too much.. i feel that the ladies will want to show off to me want.. the next time i go to the basketball court.. haiiz.. sometimes i go down they saw me than will down there say say and keep looking at me with a weird kind of look.. which i also know why larz.. haiiz...

the day before i went to NTUC to get some things that the him likes.. thought that he will be home.. cause i walked pass the basketball court and no one is playing liao cause got event.. so i went home.. i forgot to bring my keys.. but i realise that he is not at home also.. so i called him.. he picked up i ask him where is he than he ask david to lie to me.. so loud that i can hear.. was so hurt.. at the background i hear so many girls screaming.. at that point of time i know liao.. they say they playing basketball.. but i dont know what they really doing.. haiiz.. xiao hei got say what the him still treat people eat steamboat all this.. haiiz.. what i can do??... i told him i was outside the door.. i still got milk and the milk will spoil.. he told me you wait outside lorz.. if not go other people house and put the milk.. i was shocked or can say not totally shocked cause i know to him i am not important already.. i cried outside.. he say that he will be back at 10pm, he wont come back for me.. but in the end he didnt come back at 10pm he came back at 10.30pm.. the person that come back at 10pm is his father.. i waited outside for him for an hour.. i dont understand why he like that.. i still go NTUC and buy the things he wants back for him to enjoy.. but he just like that stay outside and wait lorz.. i 10pm than come back.. haiiz.. : ( sad but i cant say anything also..

ALL OF THEM DONT RESPECT ME ANYMORE!!!!

cause i lost my status... and they all think i so thick skin, GEN BI CHONG and a laughing stock for them to laugh at...

WORRIED.. SAD... HURT... today surpose to be a happy day.. and i hope it will.. (n_n)

JIA YOU BAH!!!!

will update later in the day what happen.. : ) loves!!!

(>*-*>)desertedgal

luvs@pooh&you

(;_;) h0p3s tHAt Ar3 cRaSh3d, h3Art tHAt is br0k3n (;_;)

2010-10-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

day after day.. day after day.. seconds after seconds.. hours after hours.. mintues after mintues..
..all pass by just like this.. waiting and waiting....

why time want to pass so fast..

why is it so easily broken?... why is so easy to get hurt??... can anyone tell me???...

COMFORTS? HUGS? LOVES? PROMISES? FORGIVES? HURTS? TRUSTS? LIES? SMILES?

what are all this??.. can anyone explain to me??.. what does all this means??..

today hmm.. i actually dont want to ask want.. but i feel so bad.. ask liao also i get hurt myself.. making decisions is a hard thing sometimes espically at this kind of time.. haiiz..

wake up today, go downstairs to eat with the him.. everything has its differences.. like today me and the him ordered the same LOR MEE.. one S$3.00 one S$2.50.. can see the difference want.. one more one less.. not saying about the money.. saying what happens wont make any difference now.. so i will prefer that i dont say.. but i cant hold back my tears.. hopes that were crashed until like a mirror that dropped from a very high building..

after that the him went to play basketball.. told me that he will come back at 7 or 8pm but in the end the him came back one hour after the time he say.. not that i am not used to it.. but is the trust that i gave i cant be used to it thats all.. like i say waiting and waiting..

today AIR FORCE called me to go for the interview for the position DEFENCE EXECUTIVE ASSISTANT.. sounds good but the pay i still not sure yet.. monday i will be going for the interview.. and wednesday i going for the body check-up by the SAF.. also dont know for what.. also never grantee that i will get in.. hahahaz.. but nvm maybe got good prospect.. so will go and see see look look.. : )

other than that, that is my day today.. nothing much going to work tomorrow to see if the job suit me anot.. : ) will not go and sign yet.. : ) just in case the army wants me.. : ) although the pay is so different but i think also good to be in the army.. (^^)// cheers..

like this MV, it is the song to my blog.. : )

(>*-*>)hope&heartcrashedgal

luvs@pooh&you

@ g00d pAy, g00d eNviR0m3nT @

2010-10-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

went for a interview today with the him..
luckily i went for the interview, better pay and better prospect than the other company.. : )

HR ASSISTANT @ Transvert Scaffold & Engineering Pte Ltd

No 48 Hillview Terrace #06-05

Hillview Building

Singapore 669269

so funny i went in for the interview talk for 45mins with my HR manager.. she is so nice to me.. hahahaz.. good start good start.. (^^)

my darling went in, wah waited for him for an hour plus.. but the job is good... OE (operation excutive)!!!
good sia.. the manager see him quite good.. but than also must wait.. hehehehez.. if my darling can get that job will be good.. : ) but he will have to run here and there.. need alot of leadership skills and plannings..

JIA YOU DARLING!!!!!!

so funny.. my manager one look than know that the him is my boyfriend.. still ask when getting married.. i hear liao so happy sia.. : ) hahahahaz.. keep smiling.. : ) we already try not to stand so close liao she still can see.. hahahaz.. : ) after the interview we all go home.. he bathe liao than go down play basketball.. i am so tired so go and sleep awhile.. hahahaz.. : D

the him come home than we went out to shop for food.. buy drinks and food to replenish the fridge.. hahahaz..

HAPPY!!!! HAPPY>>>> HAPPY...

going to start work this friday.. : )

WISH ME ALL THE BEST!!!!!!!! hahahahaz..

(>*-*>)happygal

luvs@pooh&you

\\(^^) g00d?? n0t g00d?? S33 h0w i S33 tHiNgS (^^)//

2010-10-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

today my day goes quite smoothly.. hmm.. nothing much to say also..

tired and my eyes are failing me.. sometimes i cant see properly.. : (

today sleep wake up than have to prepare to go for interview liao lerz.. i ask the him to fetch me go to westmall so i can go get my clothes for the interview.. : ) in the end he really send me go i am really happy.. but i got some doubts myself.. this is one of the things that i have to convience myself to stop..

cab over to the place rather nice and big.. talked to the interviwer, Irene.. she is really nice and offered my quite high the pay for my education.. and i can still go and study.. : ) that is the best part.. (^^)// cheers... there have no cab want.. than got one uncle sending stuffs, he is so nice to offer me a ride.. too bad he not soon lu to bukit batok.. but still he offered to give me a ride to the MRT station.. he is so nice.. : ) hahahaz.. but after that i got a cab so in the end didnt take the ride.. : ) hahahaaz..

it is a good start!!!!

after that i go to basketball court to find the him and told him the news.. hmm.. i felt weird there cause people are starring at me.. i also know why they like that.. haiiz.. but i wont go and say much.. : ( after that i go home and rest, bathe all this.. wait for him to come back at 5pm to eat dinner.. in the end he didnt come back.. he came back at 5.30pm and he meeting his army friends at 6pm.. so i have to have my dinner myself.. went to go get his basketball back from his friend at the shealter, hmm.. frankly speaking his friend never pass the ball to me very nicely.. he throwed at me.. i didnt catch it, and it rolled off, he didnt say sorry.. but it is okies i also know why they like that.. (*v*)...

waiting for the him to come home now.. if everything goes smoothly than tomorrow i can start and earn some money.. : ) hahahaz.. help him and help myself..

after i get my report yesterday i today have the urge to make all my enemies to be my friends.. i have to take the first step first.. but than i really hope that they will forgive me and be my friends.. i dont want to in the future have to leave in regrets.. (;_;)/~~~~ hahahaz.. hope that i have said the right things and send the msg right.. if not it only make things worst.. have also realise that pride is not actually very important, at least not at this point of time.. : )

today i have made alot of tough decisions.. donations, taking the first step to people that i dont like in the past and be friends with them.. and also many more.. : )

hope everything goes smoothly from now on... : )

(>*-*>)bigdecisionsgal

luvs@pooh&you

(^-^) An0th3r dAy 0f tiR3dn3ss (^-^)

2010-10-04T02:40:00.000+08:00

hmm... was actually going to update it before 12am want.. but than in the end i went to play mahjong with big david, xiao hei and my darling... hahahaz... in the end i lose S$1.20 but than my darling cover up for me... than my darling win S$15... wahhhhhhhh alot right.. haiiz poor big david.. hmm... had a great game.. and lots of fun... : )

didn't update my dairy the last few days cause i wasn't in a really good mood and had very bad days.. especially the day before.. don't wish to say anything cause i am very sad... (;_;)/~~~~

in the wee morning, david, xiao hei, my darling and kenneth played mahjong and i watched some.. i think my darling let me play to make me happy.. hahahaz... at least he tried to make me happy.. cause that day i was so sad.. i cried for 7hours straight.. longest that i ever known in my life.. (for what i remembered)... hmm.. but won't say what really went wrong..

than durning the mahjong game.. at one point of time i was so damm pissed off cause they never put me in their eyes.. infront of me keep saying what the him and another girl this and that.. somemore at that time i eat my painkillers but my stomach is still aching very badly.. i have no mood to play mahjong at all at that time and i lose money.. haiiz.. after that i was better... so my mood also get better.. cause i think they saw my face change so they stop for awhile..

after that i let the him take over me cause my pain was really bad.. hahahaz.. than i go down help to go buy some food.. than i eat my medicine.. after that i felt better... (^-^) that is a good sign.. than want to sleeppp.. but than i slept like 45mins than wake up one time.. so after that i decided that i will watch my darling play.. in the end they played till 7.40am.. wahhhh... we played the whole night.. and than david, xiao hei and kenneth went to play basketball.. wahhhh.. they are so cool.... hahahaz... (>*-*>)

luckily the him didn't follow them.. hehehehez... so wicked right me... i don't wish for him to go.. really!!!

slept until 4pm in the afternoon than he go and played basketball.. hahahaz.. i followed him down i go waston than he go play basketball.. i don't feel really good seeing him play basketball with the girls.. but than how.. i love him so let him go and play..

i see i feel sad and jealous.. but than really hope that he cares for my feelings...

went to watsons and bought some cosmetics for me and the him... hahahaz... and body soap also.. quite cheap 3 refills for only S$8.. hmm.. cheaper than buy one bottle of LUX..

CONGRATS I KNOW TO SAVE ALOT!!!!!! (^^)

after that i walked home.. walked pass the basketball court.. at least the him still got look at me although he is playing basketball... means he still care for me.. : ) i am "FLYING" hahahaz.... go back home.. bathe, wash clothes and make them dry.. after that go and continue to watch my ghost whisper.. scary.. waiting for the him to call me than i can go down to go eat with the him.. hahahaz... i was so happy... he after an hour or two like that called me than i run down.. hehehehez.. but i realise something when i reached there.. the girls are all not around already.. maybe thats y he call me go down.. or maybe is i think too much liao lerz... : (

but it is okies.. in the end me and my darling and arron and xiao hei, we all went to eat MAC but i cant finish everything.. nowsdays my appetite is not good.. i can one whole day never eat anything at all or one day eat once only.. that is so bad sia.. but i can fit into my pants perfectly.. hahahaz.. it means that i am growing skinner.. so i must continue like that.. : ) the doctors also put me on diet.. cannot eat too much oily food also.. : (

after that like you know.. me, my darling, big david and xiao hei played mahjong.. than now i can update my dairy.. hahahaz...

today will be another day of worry and anxious..

i have to go back to the hospital to see my doctor to get my report on my CT scan... haiiiz.. after that go for an interview.. the him also got a interview tml @ 4.30pm.. hmm.. all the best to him.. hehehehez...

HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL TODAY!!!!!!

nothing goes wrong everything will be fine...

(>*-*>)worriedandscaredgal

luvs@pooh&you

(;_;) Is iT s0 3mbArraSSiNg t0 l3t 0th3rS Kn0w (;_;)

2010-09-30T09:38:00.001+08:00

Is it so embarrassing to let others know??...

i like to watch korean dramas and i got two shows to share..

Cruel Temptation

A man that have no shame.. He has a wife, but than he still goes outside picking flowers and bring the flowers home.. Killed the wife in order to marry the flowers... haiiz...

Two Wifes

This man have a wife at home.. Also another no shame.. Goes outside and pick flowers also.. but this one different got wife say no wife...

watch the cruel tempation really make people have that tempation to do the same following the show... taking revenge.. there are people worst than the two men in the show.. they can do both... like this is not called no shame already is called pro..

yesterday i didnt post anything,cause i also dont know want to say what.. i was shocked, stunned and disappointed.. shocked by what is written, stunned that it was written in front of me, disappointed of myself being shocked and stunned... i throwed my temper yesterday.. what a stupid move... it shows that i still care..

you are there is also like not there..

making things worst only me... throwing my temper around.. haiiz.. already say that have to control my emotions... but i am still showing it out.. why?? why?? why?? what am i surpose to do..

!!anyway i dare to write all this cause i know that the him wont come and see my dairy want!!..

my daily life is not a interest to many people... cause my life is so boring and only around someone... that's me... once devoted i will devote to it or someone my whole life.. unless something really happens.. many people are disappointed in me.. which i and them knows why.. i tired liao.. cause of all those tears that are flowing down my cheeks..

that is my day yesterday... (;_;)/~~~

(>*-*>)sadandhurtgal

luvs@pooh&you

(u_u) it hUrTs (u_u)

2010-09-28T12:22:00.003+08:00

it hurts to see

it hurts to hear

it hurts to do

it hurts to give

what can i do?... what can i say?...

it is what you like to do, and you are happy with it...

one after another, one after another... first this, than that, next what??...

??FEND??

one can, two can, after that??...

how long can i carry on??... asking myself...

i choose, i see, i hear, i know..

i cant blame anyone but myself.. cause is i choose to see, hear and know.. thats why i will get this kind of results.. the smile on the face shows that the you are happy can already..

what is going on outside, i know, everyone is showing it on their faces when they look at me..

WHY am i here??...

WHY am i doing this??..

WHY am i so stubborn??..

WHY WHY WHY....

their faces is full of (?_?) question marks...

i know it is sickering for the **** to see me... irriating..

cannot get any sleep yesterday night... i have used up all my strength and i am tired.. but i still will carry on...

ask to wait.. and will wait... no matter how long...

i have used 1/4 of my life waiting.. waiting alittle longer also will have no harm.. as long as **** is there...

didnt have enough sleep.. i guess is that movie, PIRANHA 3D, that me and the him watched on funshion at night before we slept... the movie is rather sick and disgusting and frightening at times.. some more it is a R21 movie..

hmm... but i cant sleep after that.. than so fast morning already.. woke up, prepare the him for work.. and than watch my show.. but i want to go and try sleep now.. i rather sleep than anyhow go and think.. cause of that few words someone said to the him.. i am so hurt, and keep anyhow think.. haiiz... (u_u)...

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5.14pm:

i am so dead.. how hard i try to sleep, i still cant sleep... what should i do..

how can i control my emotions infront of the him??... can anyone advice... haiiz.. everyone is disappointed with me...

i just need 5mins from a person to listen to what i have to say... what can i expect?.. i cant expect anything from a person.. why do i keep having day dreams... keep thinking that there will be a little hope that you will listen to what i have to say... what can you expect from a person that cant see you... its so fast... so swift... come and just go... just like that... i will have to keep seeing only the your backview... so happy and blessed... today i really cried... tears keep rolling down my cheeks and cant stop.. like a spoiled water tap... i am jealous of them.. so jealous... (u_u)... (;_;)... they have all i never have wanted...

**WiLL uPdaT3 lAt3r aGaiN in Th3 NiGhT...** (;_;)/~~~~
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11.48pm:

Here is a story...

There is a girl and a guy... The guy loves this particular sport, rain or shine he will also keep some time for it.. This sport can be played by both genders and the place where he always had his games there will always be ladies there.. At that time, the guy is happy with his girlfriends.
One day, the girl ask the guy if he wants to have dinner with her.. but did not get any reply.. Thus, the girl waited.. at last the guy came back, but the girl have no guts to ask if he has eaten and wants to eat with her.. So she decided to not ask and wait for him to say.. cause the girl is so afraid that the guy will get mad at her.. While waiting the girl knows that the guy is chatting with his girlfriends, smiling so happily.. This makes the girl so upset, whenever she hear it ring the girl's heart breaks.. Sad but the girl can't do anything about it.. Cause she doesn't want to make things worst..
At last, the guy asked if they girl wants to follow him and get some food.. at first the girl was sad and didn't want to follow.. but after thinking again.. "no point being that way" cause she promise herself that she will try not to show her feelings out.. So they went to buy noodles, hotdogs, crabmeat, drinks.. The girl was happy.. but still something upset her, hurt her.. the guy said that his skills in that sport is getting better and he will only teach his girlfriends.. the girl holds her tears and force a smile on her face.. but deep inside the girls is so hurt.. After they reach home, the girl cooks for the guy to eat... her heart full of sadness.. but she is happy and felt blessed that she can still cook for the guy to eat..

End of the story..

..??INTERESTING??..

i cant sleep just now.. keep having nightmares.. anyhow thinking...
watching the ghost whisper now.. quite scary to watch it at night..
but tired.. will try to sleep early tonight if possiable.. : D

that's my day... hope you like my boring story.. (>*-*>)...

(>*-*>)hurtinginsidegal

luvs@pooh&you

$^o$ (/o^)/ y3Ah wHAt A w0nd3rfUl dAy $^o$ (/o^)/

2010-09-27T19:18:00.002+08:00

in the middle of the night being hungry is so sickering... so fattering... hahahahaz.. : D
but was a happy moment... half a hotdog and i am happy until like that.. hahahahaz.. *(^O^)*

hehehehez... eat liao sleep... wah can die... hahahahaz....
had a really good night sleep.. full of smiles on my face.. this few days is the happiest days of this two months.. carry on being happy and my illness will faster recover i hope.. haiiz this few days i feel that the pain is coming and going more often than the past.. really hurts alot when it hurts.. but i try my best not to show out already.. dont want the him and his father to be worried, family also.. haiiz... m(_ _)m my bad...

(@_o) !!bad weather but excellent mood!! (@_o)

woke up around 3pm.. sleep until like pig like that.. but still i got notice when the him go or come back... i am a very light sleeper... sleeping can hear what is happening around sometimes.. little bit of noise than i wake up liao lerz... hahahaz..

called mac delivery at around 4pm like that... i ordered the usual double cheese burger and he ate the double fillet-o-fish.. hahahaz... quite expensive want... once in the while eat can liao lerz... cost the him S$17.70... going to 5 the delivery came than we eat together and watch inception.. but that movie the graphic not very good... and the story line starting dont really understand what is it talking about.. how can people go into other people's dream still can talk and fight want.. so weird.. so watch until half-way than never watch liao.. cause the him wants to go and play basketball again... (/_\)

he ate extremly fast sia.. cause he wants to go down and play basketball.. haiiz.. help the him to prepare liao than see him go, after that go and finish my mac and watch my show..

haiiz... like i say.. SEE MORE, TALK LESS, SHOW LESS.. no matter how sad, how angry, how hurt you are.. it is best to try not to say anything or show anything.. hide inside that broken heart is the best..

i know, but i dont say, dont ask.. being 8(>_<)8, being (u_u), cannot solve the problem, only create more problems.. so it is a wise decision not to do that... (;_;)/~~~~

no matter what i am still really happy and have a excellent mood today.. wont go and spoil it because of this thing.. (not going to say what it is here...)

DON'T WORRY!!! BE HAPPY!!!!

~~ going to go watch my show first.. later will update agian... waiting and waiting ~~

~~~updated~~~

hmm... i was writing something and suddenly the him appeared at the window... i had a shock of my life... wah... luckily the him didnt see what i write (hopefully the him didnt)...

dont know y, while i was writing i didnt realise that i dropped a few tears on that paper.. maybe is because of the song that was playing outside the room... but it is okies!!!...

actually today need to go back to NUH to see doctor and get my report want... but than the appointment changed to next monday.. hopefully i can still stay... : D (*crossed fingers*)...

nothing much liao today... happy day.... (>*-*>) anything i will update tomorrow again... hahahahaz... : )

(>*-*>)excellentmoodgal

luvs@pooh&you

(@_0) dAy fUll 0f cUri0usIty & mAdn3sS (@_0)

2010-09-26T19:42:00.010+08:00

<< !!!WAH WHAT A WONDERFUL AFTERNOON!!! >>

weather is good... no rain todayy...
had a really good night sleep.. sweet dreams... hahahahaz.. being loved the feeling.. : D
i really love that feeling so much!!!.... hahahahaz... smiles & smiles & smiles.. smiles until my mouth can split opennn.. but i wont say what my dream is.. hahahaz... : D (*sssshhhhh* secret)

had lunch with the him.. i had claypot.. wah so expensive.. he had mee pok..
the claypot rice is quite okies... but i still prefer the one at the market there want... i think it is nicer to eat..
cant finish the whole thing by myself.. so i shared with the him...

i feel that i talked too much and showed too much feelings out already.. sometimes really hate my mouth and my face.. showed out too much feelings, talk too much already... (/_\) i shouldnt push too far... i also cannot blame others cause is i deserved all this want..

EVERY CHOICE HAS ITS CONSEQUENCES!!!

i have said and done my part as a ****, but it is up to people if they want to treasure me or take me for granted... i dont have the power nor the strength to control their choice... taking pity isnt going to help at all..

i am so curious about what is the answer && mad with myself...

but so fast and i get the answer.. ONE CALL... my hopes for today are all dash.. i thought that there might be a tiny tinny winnie bit that i may get listened to... but i also cannot be disappointed in anyone.. only myself.. cause i am too 不知量力 already... all this is known long time ago... but you know.. hopes... push me to carry on.. (n_n)

LONELY?? || dont have the right to say that.. ||

Y?? || dont have the right to care... ||

WHERE?? || dont have the right to know.. ||

WHO?? || dont have the right ask... ||

i dont play... i am serious.. afraid but still go on.. waiting and waiting... hopes after hopes... dreams after dreams..

enough of this... after the him left for basketball... enjoying the him and her... i keep myself occupied...

1. watch finish my show 烘焙王金桌球

2. wash the bed sheets and clothes, fold them....

3. wait... everytime i look out and see 7th floor i am full of hopes... (like a weirdo) : D

knowing too much bring too much pain @ times.. sometimes really envy those people that are not very smart (no offence) like this they wont know too much and like this they are more happier...

see more, talk less, show less??...

**t0 b3 c0nTinu3d**

****updated****

hahahahaz... i am over the moon... the him came back around 8 plus, after that we went to IMM and get a printer.. CANON is the brand, got fax, print, scan all in one... S$169 same as his block number.. can go buy 4D liao lerz.. hahhahahaz... : D

at least we get to go out... smiles (*v*)

the printer is quite bulky, so when we go home have to be extra careful.. i was so scared that anytime i will fall of the motor.. *phewwwwww* but was safely home.. sweat all over... reached home than go and bathe.. rather hot want and sweat alot... hahahhaaz... after that we set up the printer together.. it is such a long time already... : )

real tired and hungry.. but must control cause i cannot eat much also...

to the him: ALL THE BEST IN YOUR INTERVIEWS TOMORROW OR TUES!!!! JIA YOU!!!

.....signing off...... (^^)// yeah...

(>*-*>) fullofhopesgal

luvs@pooh&you

(n_n) n0t A b0rInG n0r A iT3r3sTiNg dAy (n_n)

2010-09-26T16:14:00.003+08:00

Saturday, 25/09/2010,

friday night after dinner with the him, he went to had a game of mahjong with his guys friends @ their house...

waited for the him to come back home, so that i can open the door for the him, so wonderful the feeling...

although the him didnt come back right after the game, he went to eat mac with them, i still waited... it gives me the being blessed feeling..
HAPPY!!! (>*-*>)...
the him came home @ around 5 plus am... : ) so it is considered saturday post liao.. hahahahahaz...

.... sweet dreams... sleep tight...
(*-*)zzzzzzz......

.... GOOD MORNING SINGAPORE!!!! (opppppsssssss..... is good afternoon than correct...)

hahahahaz.. wake up already.. the him went to play basketball, came back durning the afternoon and eat lunch with me.. i was so careless.. burn until myself with the frying pan... hahahaz... so painful....

in the night, the him bring the same people to his house to play mahjong.. hmmm.. they play while i watch my show.. hahahaz.. but the last few rounds i watch the him play... hahahaz.. best is dont talk much, they wont like it.. hahahaz.. interesting game.. : )

after the game, is supper time, but i didnt follow cause i know they want to have guy's talk and i also know that if i am around than hahahahaz.. as you know!!! some things cant be said but i also know.. but than how.. pretand not to see, not to hear, is the best.. make sure that you hide your feelings welll... misunderstandings are hard to clear.. i know cause so many people misunderstands me and my intentions... (/_\)

but i am sure ALL IS FINE (o_0).....

after supper off to bed liao so dont want to say much.. i eat the medicine make me so sleepy.. (^^) LUX....

.... WiLL UpDat3 lAt3r in tH3 dAy aGaIn .... : )

(>*-*>)sleepygal

luvs@pooh&you

(>->) wHat a dAy at tH3 h0spItAl (>->)

2010-09-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

thursday, 23/09/2010

hahahahaz... ytd i didnt update cause i was tired and sick..
ytd wasnt my day.. was surpose to go to work with qun ying and zt but in the wee morning i vomited and have fever.. after a jab i was fine..

: D after that in the afternoon i waited for the him at his block downstairs and go home with him.. : D

although i know too much and the friends i once knew encouraged & moved on i dont want to say much..
keeping quiet maybe can be more peaceful, and wont have so much trouble..

!!!!JUST DO MY PART & BE HAPPY!!!!

.....at least i get to be there....

Friday, 24/09/2010

today, morning i wake up have to go to the hospital to have my CT scan.
haiiz... i did something so bad and stupid... i made the him angry, cause i asked him to take me to the hospital when he is busy... (/_\) sad & guilty...

went to the hospital and waited from 1.30pm to 4pm..
they make me drink a orange solutions!!!! (taste so yuckiiee!!!!)

hahahahaz.. so painfullll.....
the nurse say that my both arms all got injected,
so no choice have to inject my hand.. OUCCCHHH!!!..
haiiz.. also no choice... : D they have to inject medicine while
doing the scan... : (

durning the scan gosh.... they injected something into my butt..
YUCKSSSS!!!!! haiiz...

the medicine that they injected me make me feel like puking...
almost puke in the room... plus it make my whole body feels so hot...

so nan shou... : ( haiiz... no choice the nurse say that it is normal..

when i go home.. i took a cab.. rain so heavily sia.. haiiz... cost me S$9.50. so expensive... haiiz..
reached home liao let the him go play basketball liao jiu wash the socks, take down the clothes and hang up the socks...
after that went to have a bathe... while waiting for my hair to dry.. i watched GHOST WHISPHER.. freaking me out... haiiz..

the medicine at the hospital is making me sick.. going to rest now... that's my day today (n_n)...

(^^)// sickgal

luv@pooh&you

(>->) HuGs && Ki3ss3s (>->)

2010-09-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

another day just pass by like that...

and come another day..

24 hours is not enough for some people...

looking forward to tomorrow... going to go work with qun ying and zhen teng @ coffee bean..
starting work @ 11am and going to do OT if can!!! earn more for my expenses.. : D

lets see what is the changes there is, there... keep bullying my friends.. haiiz..
work peacefully and everyone will be happy marz.. y want to side here and there!!! must be fair and square..

everyone is important, please still give your respect to them.

dont take anyone for granted, use already than throw..

like rubbish like that (!_!)

today is a boring day for me!! stayed at home after that go out and saw things that are so "nice"...

nothing much to do and watch the 倚天屠龍记..

going to sleep liao lerz... tomorrow gonna wake up early to go to work.. (n_n)...

....signing off....

(>*-*>) myhappiness&luvisyou

luvs@pooh&you

() A wH0le n3w l00k f0r mY bl0g ()

2010-09-22T05:20:00.003+08:00

Dear QY, JY....

At last i cleared & deleted all the unhappy blogs that i had in the past...

This is a new post for this month..!!! Learnt to not go and hate those ppl that took all my things away from me and instead learnt to love them better...!!! (^^)// THREE CHEERS TO MEL!!!!... : D

Took a good whole 7hours just to "REBORN" this page of mine.. suddenly saw that there are many things that is not meant to be there.. (>*-*>)...

HUGS AND KISSES to you all (n_n) !!!!...

many question marks (?_?) to life and all the things that are happening right now!!

but there is a reason that why it is there.. : )

TO: NET

hehehehehez.. went with you to JOG today at gombak stadium... can exercise more often in future.. : D

too bad i cant run much cause stomach still pain... wait i recover liao i will run with you all you want.. hahahahaz...

got to go and sleep liao!!!! so so so so so... the... tired... (@_@) gong gong already!!! >.<
pardon me if my english is bad.. i in a half sleeping half awake kind of status to write this post.. hahahahaz... : )

(^^)// myhappiness&luvisyou

luvs@pooh&you

40% Of mY DaY is Bad!!... 60% oF it Is GoOd... :P

2010-07-07T02:20:00.002+08:00

.... LeTs StArt wIth tHe 40% .....

Early in the morning i have to wake up and go to the hospital with my grandma... she fell in the toilet, unfortunatly... after that i have to go to work at Marina Bay Sands, The Shoppers Mall, The Coffee Bean.. i work for 9 and a 1/2 hours straight... my legs are all breaking up and hurts alot...

**Better go get a pair of EXTRA COMFORT shoes, so that i wont get hurt while working... cause working in that environment we have to keep i standing and walk around with no time to sit and rest... that's is so DAMM sad!!!!!.... : (

At work, i didnt know that in Singapore people can keep TIPS!!!.... hahaz... i was damm STUPID and DUMB.. i was so honest that i gave all the tips to the counter.. if not today i would have gotten over $70 of tips... more than my pay for today... wah.... that was stupid of me... : ( hahahaz....

....... now fOR tHe 60% .......

For the good part is that luckily my grandma is fine now... hahaz... back at home HEALTY and all good... :) Luckily my first day that the coffee bean was good and had lots of fun.. thanks to that bunch of co-workers and managers that really took great care of me... : ) hahaz... cool... i think in future my time there will be real fun.. but one of the ladies warn me about a GIRL manager for her really BAD ATTITUDE and plus HER REAL DEMANDING BEHAVIOUR!!!!... really sounds bad... must be careful liao lerz... i dont want to lose my job there... it is hard to find a part - time job to earn extra cash... : )

Didnt meet any really demanding customers... is a good sign for the first day.. cool!!!!!... hahaz...

disappointed with this kind of guy....!!!!!!!

hahaz... thats my day!!< " p > will update you again : )

CHEERS WITH LOVE,

wInnE ThE pOOh : )

BORING DAE!!!!!! wa8ing 4 14/03/08

2008-03-12T14:36:00.002+08:00

12/03/2008
tis week holidae so boring staying at home
hope tt ppl will call mii out...
staying at home is lyk staying somewhr whr thr are alwayz quarrels...
but nvm ii will wa8 till ii 21 nn get out from tt place...
ii love my bro nn my mum...
hahaz

anyway tis fri is my pri sch outing hahaz...
realli hope tt everyone will attend...
although itz quite hard prepareing everytink
but ii hope tinks will go on smoothly...
looking 4ward tuuh tt bbq at east coast park...
spend lotz of money but den hope tt ppl will appreciate it nn come...
hahaz
realli hope tuuh see frenz from 5 years ago...
miss tt time we had...
running about playing catching... FREEZE... the game we alwayz play as a class durning our recess... nn aft our psle... =)
ntink else tuuh sae 4 2dae...
hahaz.... happy dae...

2 dae of the " I am Gifted, so are You " 27/02/08

2008-02-27T21:33:00.001+08:00

....... 2rd dae.......

2dae is a dae which ii learn many tinks...

many values in life... thr are many ppl whose misfortue had cause them many unhappiness... but they still continue their lives so per normal... we muz alwayz believe in ourselves... we should not sae de word " DON'T " which would destory our life...

2dae many ppl in the 5n cohort cried so sadly in the dark... 4 watz reason ii wont sae but den.. we did so many tinks which is so ridiculously sucks... no matter watz family is de most important tink..

the 5N RWKZ...

anywayz we all learn tuuh treasure each other and help 1 another out... 5n we muz alwayz help 1 another nn nvr giv up on anytink kkies hahaz.... no matter watz happen in de past let us all put it behind us... the PAST IS NOT EQUAL TUUH DE FUTURE... hahaz

ii made my confession tt ii noe ii m verii irritating but ii hope euu alll will forgive mii... thanks for my frenz who alwayz stand beside mii... nn dun forget frenz ii m alwayz by ur side helping euu all so dun tink tt ii onli will disturb euu all... hahaz

we still in de middle of class sing birthdae song for miss cheong...

any wayz 2dae is oso MISS CHONG birthdae... HAPPY BIRTHDAE MISS CHEONG....

2dae is oso a verii tiring dae but it is worth it ii realli learn my tinks... " CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES "

ii lux de 5n classes... euu all ppl rwkz...

(the picture is de pic of de weridest laugher ii ever heard...)

( tis is de pic of miss cheong my ex-form teacher )

but miss cheong ii will alwayz treat euu as my form teacher...

thanks for everytink...

DaY 1 of "I am Gifted, so are You" 26/02/08

2008-02-27T13:21:00.000+08:00

............three daes ago.................
26/02/08 is the first dae of the programme called " I AM GITED, SO ARE YOU"...
so excited about tis programme as it was the first time i attended tis programme... many ppl oso sae tt it is a verii exciting programme... make us ppl understand mor about high self-esteem and stuff many ppl dun noe...
my first instructor is called ADIM oso can call him "abang"...
first time ii see him ii tot he was a chinese... but tuuh find out actually he is malay.. mother chinese, father malay... among all my three instructors he is the funniest person... FULL OF JOKES... (dirty ones at times)...
hahaz
second instructor was the boss of that company ADAM KHOO... although sometimes he was quite boring because of the way he tok, but ii still find him quite funny at times... many ppl sae tt he quite mono-tone... hahaz but no matter watz he oso taught mii many tinks... the last instructor has the most weridest laugh hahaz.... de time he laugh all of us will alwayz laugh oso...
the most funniest gal Jes hahaz.. she lyk tuuh hyper liao laugh non stop... but hahaz ii love tis programme... lyk tis laughing and joking we pass by 1 dae.. time passes by so fast... =)
from 7.40am tuuh 2100hours... hahaz

(the picture is de funniest instructor ii said " ADIM " )

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40% Of mY DaY is Bad!!... 60% oF it Is GoOd... :P

BORING DAE!!!!!! wa8ing 4 14/03/08

2 dae of the " I am Gifted, so are You " 27/02/08

DaY 1 of "I am Gifted, so are You" 26/02/08

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